Author: perceptionflow

Why should I hold on to any objects of the world?
Even this concept of ‘me’ which is also a divine work?

When when you are alone, the environment is not demanding anything, and when there are no expectations of any kind, then you reach this frozen ball of unresolved collected energies.

Consciousness gets bonded to beliefs(belief energies).
Consciousness gets identified with things/objects.
When all identifications with this plane are removed, there is only identification with the infinite and transcendent.

Identification Object – When threatened, creates contraction of consciousness around the object, so as to tightly hold on to it.
So if your reality is highly mercurial, there is a constant struggle to hold on to the objects of identification. This manifests as controlling, clutching, gripping, grasping, desperation, holding on tight, struggling to hold on.
Fear is basically contraction of energy around the object that needs to be protected.

What essentially happens is that, reality takes away a sensation/experience from you, but since you are identified with that, you do not allow reality to make that feeling fade. You struggle to hold on to that feeling, like a child trying to hold on to his parents (only source of security) when being dropped off at school.
To some people with ‘high identifications’, reality is kind and plays along with them and their identifications.
For some others, reality moves swiftly like a storm and keeps removing objects of identifications, resulting in a constant desperate struggle to hold on to the identifications.
When reality gets fierce and starts causing everything in your consciousness to change, then its like a hurricane in consciousness, which will blow everything away. This process removes all identifications because it experientially proves to you what ‘you are not’.
It is the quest to find the ‘unchanging’, which is ‘nothing’ (since everything is moving).

Analogy: Reality can become a sandstorm and blow away all the sand object built.

Any kind of holding on in an ever changing reality is bound(inevitably) going to create suffering in ‘vain’. If reality is seen to be ever-changing with 0 essence, then the sanest thing to do would be to not hold on to anything.

Is the need to make sense the major vice like inhibition I have?
Maybe nothing makes sense in reality
What is ‘making sense’ anyway, besides a constructed illusion?
A complex illusion but nevertheless unrealWhat if everything is basically non-sense?
Am I really sane? OR Is being sane just a belief structure/mythology I hold onto?
What if the belief that I need to act sane is the very trap?
What if my need to make sense is the very prison?

Sanity is a restricted form of insanity
Insanity is where freedom lies
Sanity is like the paved path in the forest

Insanity is the whole of the forest which includes the paved path

I need to let go of the need to make sense
If all of what is going on is basically non-sense, then it is my complex illusion (holding on) that I think ‘my sense’ is not the same non-sense that is there all over realityI’m withdrawing my emotional investment from everything
Since nothing makes sense to me anymore
Everything appears to be empty, all paths appear to be empty

This perception of emptiness paralyzes me

But what if emptiness of everything is the point of existence?

If something were real, then how can reality be infinite?
Would that so called ‘real thing’, limit reality in someway?

Sometimes I feel, what comes to us as drug experiences, crazy experiences with people, experiences through meditation etc. are all the same. In other words, at a certain level voluntary and involuntary (external world is also involuntary) doings, are happenings in the same space (modulations of the same space). There is no difference between what comes to you and what you bring to you using your will/energy/power/control. Both are appearances and we are both those appearances: voluntary and involuntary.

Lets talk about the self and how to identify a self. The self is what stands out from the background. If you have no self, then you would literally be in the background and not noticeable at all in any way, i.e. absolutely not stand out. On the opposite end, if you have a very high self, you would conspicuously stand out from the background either with your looks, ideas, thoughts, opinions, beliefs, imagination etc.

The transcendent view is beyond the appearance of self or no-self. The idea is not to have a large self or a no-self. The idea is to fully FREE FALL into the EXPRESSION of ‘WHAT EXISTS/WHAT IS’. This free fall might be a movement of desire to have a stronger or more powerful self, or it might be a movement towards self abnegation i.e. a return to unknowing. Either ways, none of them is more holy that the other.

In the initial stages of understanding, its extremely helpful to see all of experience like a movie your are projecting. Like we project emotions, mental subtle feelings, memories and stories to objects and this causes most of the richness of our lives.

What I am trying to describe here is that, it is possible to move even beyond this metaphor. It is not you who is projecting from your body this life movie. In fact, even if we go further, it is also not right to say we are projecting this world in the experience dimension from nothingness.

That is, it is possible to go beyond both these analogies:

In the physical/material dimension:

Your body ——–> <Projects>————> Experience Movie (like a prism projects the white light as the color spectrum, color spectrum == Experience)

Proof: The body is a vehicle that transforms the prism of awareness light into the specific experiences that you are living now. You are therefore experiencing awareness from this prism point of view. There is both the automatic functioning of the body and the quality of volition that allows you to control experience.

In the experience dimension:

Nothingness ——-> <Projects>———-> Experience Movie

Proof: When I withdraw projections from the external world to a thought in meditation, the external world falls away for that period. I could extrapolate and infer that if I withdraw all projections from all subtle and gross objects, I would reach nothingness. As a corollary I could conclude that experience therefore projects itself from the ground of nothingness.

So the way beyond is that, consciousness is not projected from <A> to <B>. That is a particular kind of imagination, a particular meta-paradigmatic-conceptual thought.

Next Leap:

Consciousness is what experiential space is doing. Which means the notion of a point of origin, concentration and a projection from that point is removed. It is everywhere. Its as if we are inhabiting a 3-D space filled with consciousness pixels and we ARE those pixels. What the pixels are doing is what ‘WE ARE DOING’.

It is not that light of consciousness is shining through me. Consciousness is not in the body at all. It is outside and everywhere. Like everything is not a light projected from you to it. It is what space is doing itself, every molecule of space experience is choosing to be as it is.

So that is about ‘Experience Space’. In terms of experience time, WE are the experience of time, We are not in time, WE ARE TIME ITSELF. TIME IS US.We are both all the pixels of EXPERIENCE TIME AND EXPERIENCE SPACE.EVERYTHING IS EXPERIENCE, and WE ARE EXPERIENCE.