I hide behind the mask of impersonality like the ‘V for Vendetta’ movie. Because I care about the message, the idea, not about myself or my story, but just the direct condensed insight, like a scientist or physicist presents his equation and leaves the story of how he arrived at it to your imagination. The story would be interesting for sure, but the main point is the condensed message itself which is why I exclude all stories.
Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience
The ideal +ve experience is where the mind is like an infinitely large diamond that is clear, does not hold anything but yet, reflects/refracts the infinite contents around it brilliantly.
Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience qualities:
Interpretation = Refraction
Awareness = Reflection
Time = Movement
Belief = Light
The game of reflection, refraction, movement and light is perceived as meaning by the witness.
When it comes to imagination, the best imagination of reality is like a diamond, the least imagination of reality is like a mirror which simply reflects ‘what is’.
When it comes to awareness, the best awareness is ‘Infinite’, while the least imagination is ‘Unitary object’.
I could also call this: Mind and Contents.
Mind like a diamond with infinite contents ——————–Mind like a mirror with single content
Infinite awareness+Diamond like imagination+Optimal movement/change.
I could also call it: Interpretation and Raw Materials(Objects).
Interpretation like a diamond + Infinite Objects ————————————— Interpretation like a mirror + Single Object.
Mirroring of qualities in interactions, equanimity as a transcendent relationship
Qualities <x> tend to be simply mirrored among people in interactions:
Algorithm:
We feel <x>, when witnessing <x>
OR
We feel <x> towards <x>
OR
We react with <x>, towards observed behavior <x>
Negatives:
Anger towards Anger
Hatred towards Hatred
Judgment towards Judgment
Intolerance towards Intolerance
Destruction towards Destruction
Violence towards Violence
Irritation towards Irritation
Anxiety towards Anxiety
Sadness towards Sadness
Frustration towards Frustration
Depression towards Depression
Fear towards Fear
Rejection towards Rejection
panic towards panic
unrest towards unrest
distress towards distress
struggle towards struggle
resistance towards resistance
fighting towards fighting
silence towards silence
indifference towards indifference
neglect towards neglect
unrest towards unrest
distress towards distress
struggle towards struggle
resistance towards resistance
fighting towards fighting
silence towards silence
indifference towards indifference
neglect towards neglect
Positives:
Love towards Love
Attraction towards Attraction
Admiration towards Admiration
Excitement towards Excitement
Calmness towards Calmness
Happiness towards happiness
Fascination towards Fascination
Jovialness towards Jovialness
Energeticness towards Energeticness
Acceptance towards Acceptance
Equanimity is about transcending this action/reaction paradigm and just a clear seeing of ‘What is’.
Its like moving in the ‘Z’ axis and seeing the whole ‘x,y’ paradigm and then projecting ‘Acceptance’ as a mega-relationship to the entire ‘action/reaction’ paradigm/plane and all its contents.
Equanimity is a transcendent relationship to the action/reaction plane.
Lament about existential condition
How have people managed to collapse their infinite imagination potential
Into this severely constrained and limited space/time framework
Into this culture/society/belief/identity/commitment paradigm
I mean seriously, how can you constrain yourself like this?
It seems like such an insult, disgrace
Like i’ve been greatly wronged, punished
Like a severe prison I’ve been put into
Why would I ever decide to enter this realm of severe limitation
With a body which I have to constantly worry about and protect?
I live in constant fear
Of losing what little I have
Which everything around me keeps constantly threatening
And even to keep the little freedom I have
I have to work everyday for other people’s wills
And sell my soul away
What kind of a punishment is this?
This is just horrid, appalling, despicable.
What is the purpose of this realm of severe limitation?
It is such an insult to my infinite nature, to define myself as a narrow concept.
I mean how can I sell my soul like this, so cheap?
Is this the price for my attachments?
Such a great price?
Just to live in this first class prison?
Just to live in fear of loss all the time?
How can a sane man live happily?
In this condition?
How can he be so blind?
So as to not see how badly he has been limited?
Can ignorance of imagination really be that great?
Poetic Insight – Nov 20
Trust the flow,
Trust the movement
Its all a dream
You dream you are weak
you dream you are powerful
You dream you are happy
You dream you are sad
You dream things are terrible
You dream things are beautiful
The objects contain no qualities
Apart from the ones you project
The external world is a humble prop
Your humble servant, An inviting stage
A canvas for your dreams
Your dreams of adventure
Dreams of understanding
Dreams of deprivation
Dreams of delight
Dreams of fantasy
Dreams of greatness
Dreams of suffering
Dreams of sorrow
Dreams of limitation
What a strange world this is
what a strange existence this is
how absurd is everything
Why do I exist as me
In this place, time and situation
Witness your power as the dreamer
See that light and shadow is your sweetest game
See the magic in this absurdity
Realize there has never been anything apart
The ultimate reality is you
That mystery is you
The unborn is you
The magic is you
Your intellect and knowledge
Are accumulations of a man walking backwards
He walks backwards into the unknown
But sees and holds on to his passing creations
Believing its him and acting from there
Not realizing he is not his creation
He limits himself in fear of loss
But in reality
He is that very unknown he steps into
At every moment
What you create from accumulation
From prior knowledge and experience
Is already dead and stale
The truth is ever-new, ever-refeshing
Create from the unmanifest
Create from the spontaneous
Create from the unknown
Create from the unexpected
That is where the true ecstasy lies
Reclaim your true identity
Return to the unmanifest
Your unborn nature
The infinite potential
The Ultimate Understanding
Today, it occurred to me, ‘enlightenment’ just sounded like a funny sounding word to me. The ultimate understanding is that there is that there is nothing TO understand. Understanding itself is an appearance in the pool of ever changing appearances in consciousness.
An analogy would be similar to thinking a cartoon character in the movie screen is real, but the truth is not only is the character not real, but also, all the content displayed on the screen is made up of the pixels of the screen. The screen pixels refer to the pixels of experience/consciousness/awareness/perception.
STEPS:
– This understanding develops by first viewing everything as consciousness/awareness/appearances/phenomena. ‘Absolutely Nothing’ can be excluded. This deepening takes inquiry, interest and practice.
– Reduce everything to this one substance and then start your observation from that point of view.
– Next observe the impermanence and change of all phenomena.
– When change is observed carefully, non-essence of anything is revealed.
Rule: If an object makes a 100% change in its nature from state A to state B, this implies the true nature of this object is unknown/mystery. 100% change = implies unknown/mystery nature. So if you observe 100% change in your awareness, the non-essence of all content is revealed.
Irrelevance of external appearances and belief’s about other people’s enlightenment
There are some states of mind, that make life easy.
There are some states of mind that make life very hard.
Generally the more you rebel against God’s will (the effortless undercurrent), the more difficult life becomes. But this rebelling or flow, is an internal experience. How you appear externally is completely irrelevant.
Externally you may appear to resist or comply, but this external appearance says very little about your internal experience. Someone may appear to greatly resist what’s going on in society, but its barely a struggle for him, its effortlessly happening. On the other hand, someone may appear to comply with all the demands put on him, but internally he maybe secretly resenting this and bitter towards his compliance.
So 0 resistance, effortlessness is purely an internal experience. There is no way of knowing or proving whether another person is effortless or resisting in this life, or how much he is resisting.
This is why it is impossible to know if another person is enlightened or not, in fact it is totally irrelevant. After all everything is made up of You, Your experience, Your consciousness, Your Awareness.
If you imagine another person is enlightened, then you would try to attain his state of mind (as imagined by you).
Enlightenment is Transcendence, not an attainment of a particular state of mind. It is transcendence from everything.
To give an analogy: Its is not about a fish moving from one region of the water in the ocean to another region. It is about the fish looking at the entirety of water from an entirely different dimension that is ‘Air’ or ‘Land’. The water here is experience, and enlightenment is about transcending experience, not moving from one experience to another. It is seeing that ‘No experience is You’ and that ‘You’ are beyond all experience.
It is the removal of identity, identification, from all experience – the nameless formless boundless thing that is left, is the real you.
Why does this realm of existence exist?
If everyone is eventually going to realize the nature of their true self…then its just god playing different masks at different levels of distance away from his true nature… The most far-out adventure is of the person who believes he is something extremely limited… But as long as he believes in that, that is the truth for him and he simply acts from that place…the question would be: What would you do if you are god? And use the full power of your imagination to answer this question…your own imagination ultimately has the answer for why this plane of existence exists….out of all the infinite possibilities why does this possibility exist? Is the contemplation…why experience such limitation in terms of time space body survival social systems etc.?…if you were god, would you ever create something like this?….ultimately everything is made up of spirit/consciousness…So its just a question of knowing your infinite nature and then understanding why this particular realm exists.
Modalities of experience used by the spirit to play
There are 3 modalities of experience props for the spirit:
Sensory, Mind, Belief
Sensory modalities:
Internal: Feel, Image, Talk
External: Touch, Sight, Sound
Meaning superimposing/projecting itself onto sensory modalities:
Sound – What is the meaning projected on music? What is the meaning of language?
Sight – What is the meaning projected on art paintings?
Touch – What is the meaning of exotic textures?
Image – What is the meaning of mental images?
Feel – What is the meaning of emotions, internal feelings? (Energy body)
Talk – What is the meaning of the subvocalized inner voice, or recreating sounds in my head?
Mind modality – Lets define this modality/dimension as the conceptualizer of experience. The mind is also a generator of thoughts – ideas, concepts, imagination.
How much meaning do your ideas, thoughts, imaginations, concepts give you?
Belief modality – What do you recognize yourself to be (what flavor of experience, what qualities)? What are you identified with? What are you moving towards? Why do you like/dislike different things? What stories have you internalized? What is your conditioning and how does it condition your present experience? What do you desire/seek?
How much meaning do you feel from your beliefs, goals, identity, direction of life?
Spirit/Meaning modality – How do you process/interpret all of the other modalities? How do you project meaning on all of the other modalities?
The spirit modality is the final one and it comes down to INPUT INTERPRETATION – Input from all the other modalities i.e. Sensory (internal, external), Mind and Belief.
The spirit is the dreamer, the ultimate subject who does the INPUT/DREAM INTERPRETATION of all of the INPUT/CONTENT (All of the other modalities).
Ultimately all of the other modalities are simply different kinds of props used by the Spirit as props for meaning. That is how a spirit enjoys itself, by creating various props, giving them LIFE (‘meaning’ projections) and playing with them. Very similar to how a child picks up a bunch of toys and merrily plays with them.Â
The external world/conceptual framework etc. is like a shared reality, which serves as a prop, for a bunch of spirits to come down to this plane and experience this.
This earth plane of existence with its laws is very limited, manifestation is much slower compared to the higher dimensions the spirit is used to, many swaths of experience are not available to the spirit at all here, however it is an interesting experience for a spirit to incarnate here as a body, because its a place that allows the spirit to experience LIMITATION.
This experience of LIMITATION then potentates the experience of FREEDOM once the spirit is out of here.
It is like, if you watch a movie about people that are starving, suffering, facing danger and dying, a part of you feels relief that your life is so much safer. Similarly a spirit incarnates here to experience limitation, so that once free, the freedom is all the more wonderful.
Contemplation: Nov 18: The external world is just a prop
The external world is just a prop for your projections, like how props are used in a play.
What makes the experience of the real play happen? Its projection.
We project meaning onto to the external world, and that’s what creates riches.
True riches = Meaning, Synthesis of Imagination into a whole.
Meaning is beauty, a gestalt perception, where the whole>>>sum of the parts.
Meaning is like a dream. Different meaning frameworks = different dreams.
About meaning:
– Like imagine the difference between a dead human body and a living human, what is the difference in your perception?
– Imagine a movie playing with just random lights flashing, completely meaningless VS. a movie which is riveting and has you on the edge of your seat in anticipation. What is the difference?
– Even cartoon movies /cartoons can make us project all kinds of emotions on the characters. How is this possible? How do we project life like qualities onto cartoon characters?
– How is idol worship possible? How can we project the greatest of qualities on a stone idol.
– How does a child play with toys?dolls?miniatures? How do we lose this imagination ability in our adulthood?
– If you visit your childhood home and walk around all the streets, how many memories does it bring back? Imagine you invited a friend to walk with you on the same streets, would the place carry even a fraction of the significance you experienced?Â
– When you repeat a word again and again for more than 30 times, the meaning of the word is lost right. You just hear it as a strange sound. What is exactly lost here? Â
About drugs:
Psychedelics open up this very part, its as if suddenly your projections get as fascinating as they were in your childhood, or even better and they pour onto all your thoughts, memories and other sensory experiences causing a flood of meaning.
Once they wear off, you return to your old meaning framework.
Source of meaning/riches/imagination/beauty/love/creation:
What is interesting is that, all the meaning is projected by you, from the spiritual dimension to the sensory appearances in the world.
So you could say meaning comes from within.
The source of experience/projection/imagination is within.
The external objects and external meanings are ultimately what you projected on them from within, i.e. the source.
The ultimate source of all creation is you, inside you, intrinsic in your very nature.
