Journey to the Abstract

Lets take Myer’s Briggs dimensions as the periodic table of elements for all the personalities in the world.

There are totally 8 dimensions (Ni, Ne, Ti, Te, Fi, Fe, Si, Se).

I think whatever it maybe:

Ni —|— Ne

Ti —|— Te

Fi —|— Fe

Si —|— Se

The problem is attachment and identification.

Any kind of attachment, identification creates a binding gravity force towards that formation.

One should LOOK and dis-identify from all the formations in any of the 8 areas, to be free.

That is, one should dis-identify from every atom of formations in all those 8 areas (both active sides, and shadow sides).

Then one can simply be they are and be with the world as it is, without identification/attachment towards any formation.

That would give total freedom and movement of energy to the truth (about self and world).

It would also remove all gravity which comes from identification and attachments to formations.

If you deceive others – then the good people catch your deception.

If you are good to others – then the deceivers try to lead you astray.

That is as far as the external world is concerned.

Either ways, there can be difficulties.

But in the internal world,

If you are good, then you have peace of mind.

Its like if you are good:

1. YOU[Good] <= Reflection BAD

2. YOU[Good] <= Reflection GOOD.

But when you are bad:

3. YOU[Bad] <(deception mask)= Reflection Good

4. YOU[Bad] <= Reflection Bad

The last one is a double whammy of Bad.

Lets say each good is +50 and each bad is -50.

Then in case of  3,4: He starts off with a -50 as given.

If he then manipulates the world into seeing him as good(+50), he’ll reach 0.

But if he does not manipulate and the world sees him for who he is, then he would have a -50-50 = -100 hit

But for the case 1,2: He already has +50 as given.

If a deceiver throws a bad reflection at him (-50) he will reach 0.

But if the reflection is good, he gets +50+50 = +100 points.

So in the cases 3,4: All you are trying to do is (NOT BE SEEN AS BAD) and you need others to give you that +50 to even reach 0.

But in the cases 1,2: You are not trying to do anything and whatever others give you is above and over the positive you already have.

We want to be desired by other people(Visible God’s forms)
OR God itself(in our internal reality as qualities like inspiration)
Desire is Love.
Being needed is a form of resentful desiring, but it is still desire.
Even someone wanting to abuse you, is someone desiring you.
So there are only different qualities of desires/love.
There is constructive desire/love or destructive desire/love.
But in a way its all desire/love.

The dual is dreamed as being the subject and then the action spontaneously spawns from this subject to quell the dual in equal and opposite measure.

Like I can experience being a subject who is super powerless (through being taught that by belief directly, or subjected to abuse when helpless – which ends up convincing me of the same), and this is a potential energy which would then manifest as all kinds of kinetic power displays in later life.

Its important to remember though, that the whole thing is dreamed up instantaneously, the subject and its outward action.

The action and its dual arise spontaneously in emptiness as manifestation.

When this is seen, then one is liberated from the identity of the subject.

My job is to:
– Nurture/Nourish/Help/Flourish myself and others
– Harmonize/Balance/Stabilize myself and others
– Inspire/Elevate/Encourage/Enliven/Free myself and others
– Understand/Comprehend/Master myself and others
– Explore/Uncover/Unravel/Discover/Unearth/Find myself and others

When there is an other with me, I’ll do that for them.
When there is no other with me, I’ll do that for myself.
To the extent to which I master myself, I can master the other too.
Because they both are different nodes of the same fractal of existence.
Enlightening myself – will reveal the enlightenment and potential of all other minds.

Activity without soul desire is empty.
Activity without ego desire is empty.
So when desire withdraws from all activities,
Those activities lose power and become burdens.

Until desire energy withdraws from the main nodes.
Even if desire energy is withdrawn from the branches,
You will still struggle with low energy and somehow fulfill those branch activities.
This is because there is still identification and desire with the node, and the node depends on all its branches for its fulfillment.

For example, desire might have withdrawn from the work you do everyday,
But you still struggle and drag yourself to work everyday,
If there is still desire in the security of the concept of work and the money/status/security it provides.

So here the nodes are money/security/status and the branches are your work etc.
So even if desire has withdrawn from the branches,
Until it leaves the node, you cannot quit work.
This explains the struggle, fatigue, non-responsiveness factor.

That is why, follow your deep desire
Where-ever it takes you, where-ever it leads you
Know the difference between an empty/shallow desire and a real/deep desire
Empty desire gives shallow fulfillment that is very short lived
Real desire gives deep fulfillment

Fulfilling the soul’s desire gives the most enduring fulfillment.
In a way renunciation of shallower desires is so that you can find the deep desires.
Else life is just lived in emptiness with very temporary fleeting joys.
Deeper the desire, greater the joy of living it.

The soul energy initially occupies the entire ego and gives it power…then in the DN, it starts descending through all the egoic entities…everytime it crosses an egoic entity that entity floods experience with its reactions….so we may experience guilt, terror, sadness, hopelessness, bleakness, fatigue, powerlessness, anger, hatred – all kinds of stuff…..but the soul energy is falling from the gross ego to the (higher) subtler dimension…so that is why the reactions do not repeat again and you experience various intense phenomena like dreams but which happen only once….the reverse karma principle.

Now if soul energy is withdrawn from an egoic entity, that entity cannot sustain itself like before, like a car wheel has been de-clutched from the engine….so it desperately tries to survive with whatever little energy it contains by throwing you into all kinds of vices, desperation and compulsions. That may be the reason for the very high fatigue because the soul(engine) has withdrawn power, but the identification is still there, so it fights for its life translating as struggle, but without soul energy there is no power in the entity to survive (powerlessness and fatigue).

This continues until the soul energy has stabilized at its new subtle level and all previous grosser identifications have been extinguished.

There are 3 worlds:
– Mental world
– Astral world
– Physical world
The dream of waking life is in the intermingling of these 3 worlds in a particular configuration.

The 3 worlds are actually independent “dimensions” of existence, but they get coupled together in a certain relationship to create the full experience you are having now. These 3 worlds are actually independent of each other.

For example: If the astral world becomes still suddenly, i.e. it stops responding/dancing/moving in response to the physical world objects, you will still be in the physical world, but feel absolutely no emotion, just nothing.
The opposite of that might be, if you are sitting in your room and take LSD. The astral world will come alive, and though you are sitting in the same physical setting, the astral movement initiated by LSD will create numinous emotions and a sense of great significance and joy in you.

There is a mapping between worlds, where ingredients come together to create a full dream experience.
For example: Consider eating an edible, made up of sugar and a number of ingredients. The physical edible, its sweetness, the desire and love for the sweetness sensation, and the concept of eating an edible, all come together in creating the experience of eating an sweet edible.
If the sugar is removed from the sweet, the sweetness quality is lost. You are then eating a tasteless physical object.
If the model of the conception of you eating, and all its prerequisites are removed i.e. if the meaning of “Eating a sweet” is removed, then the experience is meaningless and there is no you and no sweet edible and no eating.

So the analogy here is, the physical edible is the physical world.
The sweetness from the sugar in it is from the astral world.
The mental world is the concept of you, the edible and the relationship of eating the edible.

I use my imagination, and create forms in my imagination, to trigger various sublime states of being. I refer to this as the world of imagination/fantasy. It is joy of creation in the subtle world of forms.

This entire sensory world I experience is like one particular crystallization of the higher world of forms. So for anything I can experience in the physical world, I can imagine an ideal form in my mind – and feel the quality essence of that form which gives great sublime joy.

Inability to feel pleasure/joy in sensory world essences is a DN(dark night) of the world of senses and inability to feel pleasure/joy in the world of forms/imagination is DN of the world of forms (same as DN of the spirit, St John of the cross).

All fears are unconscious actions (conscious reactions)…the ego itself is an unconscious action (or the ego can be said to be a reaction to some unconscious content, which is what is made conscious in the DN).

I want to be free of unconscious action….I need to stop doing completely to know my essence…The deeper I go into ‘non doing’, the more I’ll see my ‘doing’….and the more I’ll see others’ doings too….it is the height of stillness reached that determines how much you can see….when ‘doing’ becomes conscious, only then is the burden of ‘unconscious doing’ seen.

To find the source of any ‘reaction’, withdraw energy from the reaction and invest energy to find the source of the reaction….instead of the usual case, where energy is invested IN the reaction itself.