Uncategorized – Page 28 – Journey to the Abstract

April 3, 2015April 3, 2015

More about chakras

The solar plexus chakra is human, our chakras spread from inanimate hardness to the fastest and subtle ecstasy. Lower chakras are slow moving. Lower = slower and more solid it is. The seat of the ego is the solar plexus. Higher wisdom is accessed from the faster moving higher chakras. Each higher chakra is the higher dimension. I have an attachment to the dimension of thought 6th. Where possibilities can be seen at warp speed. I do not seem to have interest in manifesting in the lower planes of relationships (2nd), ego(3rd) and physical (1st). So I literally live in my head, because my lower chakras are blocked, attachment to the thought dimension. As I surrender more and more I go to subtler and subtler chakras. Its like to reach the subtlest dimension, the gross planes must be surrendered. Only then can we put our attention on the finer vibrations. Like weed takes you to higher subtle plane. For each higher chakra, the lower is only its possibility. Starting with a single possibility at the bottom chakra to infinite possibility at the highest chakra. Hell down, heaven up, both creating each other’s existence in a duality.

There might be sub-human chakras below the root.

There might be higher than human chakras above the crown.

When your primary identification is with being human, the range of possibility is from the lowest chakra to the highest chakra i/e from one possibility to infinite possibility. The subtler chakras can manifest all of the gross as its possibilities. So the subtler/upper chakras are pervasive/percolated elements in all lower chakras. Getting taken over by lower chakras is literally like being taken over by the devil. Taken over by higher chakras is heavenly and a mystical experience. Because the higher chakras represent the highest infinity from which all other lower creations can happen as just ONE of its possibilities.

So the question is, in what frequency is your primary identification in? Truly as consciousness, your identity is in all chakras, because everything is ultimately consciousness and you are THAT. You may have identification with solar chakra and suffer from relationship issues in the sacral chakra. In that case, you are identified with being SO and SO, but since relationships are a problem(chakra clogged, stuck etc.), its impeding your identified chakra to function.

Whereas in my case, my identification is with the thought chakra, so all the lower chakras are a burden to the thought chakra. Because all of the lower chakras are progressively lower dimensions/narrower possibilities of thought. Like this whole notion of being human amidst the world is a kind of thought solidified and carries down to the lower chakras. So when identification is at the thought level or beyond thought level, everything below it is a PRISON or burden that has to released. My primary identification is CONSTRAINED by attachments and bondages in the lower chakras. From my earliest memories I have identified myself with the thought chakra and I saw this whole human being business initially interesting as it was a new form/possibility of thought which I could explore. That’s why in childhood until adolescence, I had a wonderful time exploring all the experiences in this possibility. But later what happened I had to deal with other people, and that is where problems started. Because they were identified at lower level chakras.

An powerful personality person who might be driven by wordly individuality success is identified with the solar chakra.

A powerful relationships person may have been identified with the relationship chakra.

Some might have identification with the physical root chakra and are thereby attracted by material objects as literally identity.

A person who is loving, compassionate, accepting, and open minded is identified with the heart chakra. He exists in the realm of a beautiful human.

Then we have the artist, the philosophical, the expressors of all arts in all senses, they are identitied with the throat chakra.

Then we have the explorers of thought itself like alan watts etc. the great independent maverick thinkers, plato, socrates, Jiddu K., carl jung etc. have their identification in the 6th chakra. I seem to have identification here or beyond.

Then even finer than that are people with identification with realms even finer than thought, where thought itself is just one of their possibility.

Their identification would be with the crown chakra, the 7th dimension of ‘INFINITY’.

For a 7-D human being, the earth life is all about withdrawing bondages from all other lower chakras. For example, he would buy a stable house to live with conveniences (root taken care of). So now he can harmonize it and then remove his active attention from this chakra.

Then he would have a good set of relationships, friends, family and variety, emotional food, to keep him satisfied (sacral taken care of). This would obviate his need to seek and worry about relationships and he can remove his active attention from this chakra.

Then he would define an identity that works well in the world, that can allow him to run the solar chakra on auto-pilot so that he could focus on the higher ones. He would harmonize the lower chakra so that it works effortlessly without his attention, and he can therefore withdraw his attention.

Then he would find things that he loves and keep exploring them side by side. Loving relationships and objects etc. This can satisfy his love side and he can harmonize this love chakra and then withdraw his attention.

Then he can find a medium of expression such as writing, painting, dancing, teaching others etc. and then satisfy the expressive need of the throat chakra. Harmonize it and then withdraw attention from it.

Then he can reach the realm of the THOUGHT chakra and then explore and relish the nature of various thoughts. Which is where I think I exist as.

Then later he can harmonize thought too and then move to even subtler realms than thought which might require him to sit still and still the emotions and still the thoughts, and then he could access this level of subtlety.

Greater level of subtlety requires more stillness from the lower chakras to access.

When I entered the world, I was a 6th chakra thought being, so I saw an insane amount of dis-harmony and I was overwhelmed by this human realm. I knew the solutions to all problems because all problems were ultimately just one of my possibilities. One could speculate that a human takes birth in this plane with identifications progressively moving up chakra to chakra form birth to birth. So transcendence from being human is achieved when transitioning primary/secondary identification from probably 3rd solar to the 4th heart chakra. Because that is where identity is relinquished in favor of a greater embrace to a greater possibility. The transition from self to selfless.

Now there are primary identifications, as the ones I was talking about earlier. But there are also secondary identifications, which serve as bondages to the primary identification. You could have your primary identification in the thought chakra but have a secondary identification with sexual pleasure 2nd chakra say. Then your thought chakra is accordingly constrained severely by that. Because now it is not free, it is pulled by the 2nd chakra to a limited possibility to fulfill itself which is a bondage.

Translating information from higher chakras to lower chakras too is not easy if the lower chakras are stuck, blocked, there are too many secondary identifications which have not been let go etc. For example: You may have brilliant ideas in your thought chakra, and you may express it through writing using the throat chakra. But then to get it below the throat chakra may be difficult because the lower chakras are blocked/clogged/stuck/have secondary identifications and so on. Like maybe your 3rd chakra has held on to a certain identity relationship with others and this clogged 3rd chakra will not allow the throat chakra insights to manifest through itself or through your personality.

So I somewhat resent even being human, I wish I could exist without a body in the realms of THOUGHT freedom. Which is why the primary goal in my life is to free myself of bondage.

I am basically a thought being(6th chakra being) come here to live in the solar chakra existence of being a human. Its like playing a game on the computer like tomb raider.

Chakras basically differ in their speed of manifesation.

For example the slow manifestation of rocks, metals, earth solidity are the root chakra. Our physical body is the root chakra – take the lifetime of your body, how slowly you grow etc..

After the physical we have the sense of gross energy moving which is our stronger global emotions or mood. How fast does you overall mood change.

Then we have our identity which is subtler, faster moving than emotion, and pervades emotion operating at the 3rd. How fast do you perceive change of self w.r.t the world.

Then we have our heart chakra which is even broader than identity and allows us to go beyond loving our identity to loving other identity possibilities as well. A transition from self to selflessness. This is a faster moving chakra that the identity chakra – for example: how fast do you switch from loving one thing to another.

The we have even more subtle faster moving energy – changing at a high speed like take your speed of writing or talking, i.e. of expression of a feeling in finer energies like writing, painting, art etc. Music especially is a good example here, the speed of your perception of music.

Then we have the thought chakra which is wispy fast, slippery, very very changing from every milli second, which is basically the speed of thought.

Then even subtler than that, is our highest subtlest potential, subtler and faster than thought, and infinite possibility.

Analogy

Solid chakra = root (hardest, 1 possibility) ———————————-(Finest, infinite possibility) Finer than gases

Each higher chakra percolates into all the lower chakras below it.

For example –

Solid contains WATER and GAS and ETHER in it

WATER contains GAS and ETHER in it.

GAS contains ETHER in it.

And so on.

March 30, 2015March 30, 2015

Transcending the co-dependent – manipulator spectrum

Co-dependents use other’s emotional reactions as a guage for what they should and should not do.

And this is what creates an issue for them, when it comes to their contact with emotional manipulators.

The approval, disapproval, acceptance, rejection, anger, hatred, love of the manipulator starts to control the co-dependent which he RESENTS.

So the co-dependent keeps trying to convince the emotional manipulator to ‘approve’ the sides that he/she hates/is angry about/disapproves, to get out of his prison. But this becomes another prison for him, about not only being a prisoner to the emotional manipulator but also getting into another inner prison based on all the effort directed towards convincing the manipulator to withdraw his disapproval and change it to approval.

Now the emotional manipulator (is also deluded, because he thinks his well being depends on controlling the other, which is not true), will not want to approve of the aspects he disapproves because then, he would lose his well-being by withdrawing his control.

So they both continue in an endless dance – the narcissist (controller) and the co-dependent (controller of the controller). But seen from another level – they both are helplessly caught in it. The narcissist cannot help controlling and the co-dependent cannot help getting controlled.

The interesting part is that, this dance can happen even between 2 co-dependents creating an endless feedback loop:

1 interprets 2 as controller, and then starts to control 2.

Now 2 sees 1 as controlling, and then tries to control the controller, therefore control 1 (i.e. trying to stop 1 from controlling)

Again 1 sees 2 as controlling 1 (by controlling to stop 1 from controlling) and again controls 2

And so on….which can get very painful after a while.

Ok then the question is, what is the alternative, what is the way out, how can this be transcended vs. moving from one side of the dysfunction to another.

The cure for a co-dependent is not to become a manipulator.

The cure for the manipulator is not to become a codependent.

The cure is something that transcends the whole spectrum and to extricate well-being from both controlling and submission.

Well-being has to be basically EXTRICATED from both ‘controlling’ and ‘controlling the controller’:

For the MANIPULATOR, the well-being function is:

WellBeing(no. of people you control, extent of control)

{We want to control others to feel good}

For the co-dependent the function is:

WellBeing(seek meaning in life from emotional manipulator, control him passively so that he wants you to be the way you want to be)

{We want to control the controllers to feel good}

The ‘Feeling good’ has nothing to do with controlling others, or controlling the controllers.

Both these functions are to be removed from one’s personality program and well-being needs to be freed from controlling.

March 30, 2015

What is the value of experience?

Why is one object more valuable than another object?

(Object = Belief/Paradigm (an even subtler pervasive feeling such as identity ego or a whole abstract story, Thought(Images/ Subtle movement of thinking), Emotion(Internal feeling of energies and movement), Sensory perception(sight, sound, smell, touch, taste etc.)

For example:

Why is gold more valuable than stone? From the point of view of awareness, aren’t both of them having the same fullness?

So is it that, the absolute value of ALL is the same, which is consciousness (the one substance that makes up everything).

But relative value is created by the belief system present. This breaks up the multiplicity of objects into a hierarchy.

So essentially in the journey of experience:

First there is ONENESS, then there is the principle of SEPARATION, then there is MULTIPLICITY, then there is HIERARCHY/RANKING (based on belief paradigm).

So the question about ‘What is the value of experience?’ lies in questioning the ‘Hierarchy/ranking’ part of the journey of experience which falls out of oneness – to separation – to multiplicity – to hierarchy/ranking, at every moment.

Oneness = Absolute

Separation, Multiplicity, Hierarchy/Ranking = Relative

So the value system/belief system is the IMPLICIT creating the explicit of Hierarchy/Ranking in experience.

When considered from the point of view of ONENESS or the ABSOLUTE, value is seen as an additional layer that filters experience into hierarchy/ranking. So the ABSOLUTE then is basically veiled by the VALUE BELIEF SYSTEM.

That is why, the ABSOLUTE is beyond/TRANSCENDS VALUE.

March 27, 2015March 27, 2015

Love is subtle-ization of gross energy

The movement of subtle-ization of gross energy is the transformation of love.

This does not happen from outside. But it is a transformation initiated within the gross energy itself – to subtle-ize itself – to love itself. And this endogenous energy of subtle-ization frees the gross energy AND the gross energy thereby utilizes its own potential of subtle-ization to free itself.

To give an analogy to reduce the abstractness, every cell, every part, every atom, or every unit of experience has the capacity to love itself, or subtle-ize itself. The energy for love does not come from outside, that is an illusion. The energy coming from outside can make inspire you, make it easier, serve as an example for you to initiate that process within your OWN experience. Ultimately, the outside energy simply REMINDS YOU, evokes or inspires that part of YOU, your endogenous potential energy, for subtle-ization or loving the entities of your own experience.

Everything happens by itself, even the process/alchemy of love which frees the gross to the subtle happens from love (or subtle-ization force).

Another analogy for understanding subtleization would be – Heat a metal ball –> it becomes liquid –> Heat the liquid –> It becomes gas. So the gas is the freed subtle-ized version of the gross which was the metal ball.

In this case, the koshas concept can be used to demonstrate this process:

March 26, 2015

The experience of no identification

Anything and everything is allowed like space,

Anything and everything is seen clearly as experience, as light

All change is allowed like time

So its freedom of space, time and light

Does space care what is inside it?

Does light care what it is illuminating?

Does time care what is moving?

All objects allowed to be there

All objects are seen clearly as they really are

All objects allowed to change

All objects allowed to move

All objects are allowed to appear, disappear, change, move

Any interaction pattern is allowed

I am all appearances and none of them

Everything is made up of consciousness, the same substance

So nothing matters, because consciousness is eternally unchangingly present

EVERYTHING is allowed

NOTHING is a problem

There is eternal rest as unchanging ‘infinite consciousness’

March 26, 2015

Thought and Imagination cannot take you to the source

Your thought and imagination cannot take you to the source

Because it is one more layer above the source

Surrendering, stopping, letting go is the only way

Doing the above with clear understanding

Drop all effort whatsoever

Let everything effortlessly happen

See clearly that all experience is insubstantial

See that the notion of a separate self is a baggage

An unconscious holding on

Make it conscious- ask questions

what is desiring?

what is aversive?

what is suffering?

what is uncomfortable?

Contrast that with pure knowing

All the extra dense energy layer of experience over the effortless knowing is the ‘held onto accumulated ego’

The ego is the baggage burden cause of suffering

Ego is the separate self

Find if the ‘separate self’ is the origin of any thought or emotion and see its baggage like nature, its unreality

Nothing can threaten me just like any movie played cannot threaten the screen

All thought thinking imagination emotion is a layer above bliss and therefore obscures it.

Activity in thought emotion should stop for bliss to be experienced

Bliss is always there just obscured by thought emotion

Keep seeing this nature of all experience until everything is relaxed dissolved and known as the same substance.

March 26, 2015March 26, 2015

There is no ABSOLUTE point of view

All movement is mutual.
This can be clearly seen only from a detached point of view.
Because if you yourself are standing on one of the moving balls
then your view is only relative to your position.

Its like saying, stars revolve around earth,
when standing at the earth.
But when standing outside the solar system,
it seems like planets revolve around the sun etc.

They both are valid from their points of view
And THERE IS NO ABSOLUTE POINT OF VIEW
Except that the full knowledge that ‘All points of view are relative and equal possibilities’.

In other words, true knowledge is that
Everything is only an appearance,
No thing has any individual separate essence
All things share the same essence
And this shared essence is ‘Nothing’
The absolute truth is nothing.

And all appearances are valid from their respective point of view
And the appearances from all points of view are equivalent
And one can move from one to another and still be whole, complete and equally real.
However, you do see the entirety of the appearance
Along with the knowledge of ‘Nothing is essence’.

So the absolute truth may be ‘ever changing appearances with having nothing as essence or the essence is a mysterious infinite possibility’.

March 26, 2015

The flip flop of patterns in generations, and why seeking goes on forever

We perceive what was not given

what we lacked –> and we give that to our kids

For example:

If you were poor – you try to give your kids all the luxuries

If you were uncared for – you try to give out more care

If you could not study because of lack of opportunity – you give all the opportunities to your kids.

So its like a sine wave of duality or an endless flip-flopping from generation to generation

Say, if we use a simplistic analogy

Its like vanilla and chocolate ice-cream.

If I give vanilla icecream to my kids, they will feel the lack of chocolate.

If I give chocolate icecream to my kids, they will feel the lack of vanilla.

If I give both chocolate and vanilla, then they would lack the fullness of either , and therefore seek that

In other words, the only way out of lack is transcendence.

Because the system has been created to go on forever, like a rotating wheel, a pendulum

Which simply moves you from one limitation to another limitation

One lack to another lack

One object to another object

But never the infinite

Because you cannot be the infinite as long as you are an object

No matter how great, big, awesome that object might be

(Infinity) – object = What the object lacks, which by infinity math is again an (infinity)

So as long as you are an object (no matter what its size and expanse is), you will have infinite lack

Which will propel infinite seeking

March 26, 2015

Interesting things about Love

I realized some very interesting things about love

Firstly self = = love…there is no difference

What you call yourself is basically the reality you love

Also love is not necessarily for something pleasant or unpleasant or simplistic classifications like that.

For example:

You can love – messed up ppl

You can love – being with messed up ppl and then hating them, that whole dynamic

You can love – being isolated in a group and feeling alien

You can love – getting subjugated by others, acting like a slave, and then trying to run away from them

You can love – finding a stronger opponent and getting beaten by him/her, and the bitter aggressive defeat that happens post that event

You can love – finding a weak person and then constantly messing with them, and bullying them, and all such patterns

You can also love – hating yourself

Bottomline, the concept of love is much vaster than we think

All kinds of things can be loved

So basically an expansion of this ‘love’ to a transcendental height,

where all of reality is loved and accepted, a total YES to everything

IS enlightenment

Self == Love == Identification, because, that is the very reason you even identify yourself with that

Out of all of the infinite reality entering you,

the narrow set of experience possibilities you hold on to, is because of love/identification/self

Each person loves different things

If each person is a venn diagram – circle

There are various venn diagram circles with small overlaps, big overlaps and so on

But transcendence is like one super circle that encompasses all these smaller venn diagram circles

March 10, 2015March 10, 2015

Your prison walls are made up of the very ‘THINGS’ you are avoiding.

Your prison walls are made up of the very ‘THINGS’ you are avoiding. You are always keeping the ‘THINGS you are avoiding’ in awareness and then later using your mind dedicatedly to avoid those things. The -(-1) situation.-(-1) is NOT EQUAL to +1. They are 2 different realities.

The game which I am trapped in is about: How to Avoid ‘X’

I am always living and will live in fear, even if I successfully avoid ‘X’ completely, because even if I successfully avoid ‘X’, ‘X’ would still be there in my awareness which is the root problem. And funnily, me trying to avoid ‘X’, somehow paradoxically brings me much more of ‘X’. When analyzed deeper it is not a paradox at all, because my belief that ‘X’ is real always stays in the subconscious and the subconscious will obviously retain what you think is real, all the time. That is the reason the experience repeats itself again and again.

The way out of this is to first understand that ‘Nothing is real’, after that, it is a question of shifting deeply from a -(-1) mindset to a +1 mindset. Now after this is done, further transcendence can be achieved when you see ‘Everything is self, and you have never left it EVER for eternity’. That can bring about total peace.

There are 2 operations here in this algorithm:

1. Keep X in awareness

2. Avoid X by using all your mental and emotional faculties.

The delusion is that: I think ‘X’ is real, even if its out of sight. But how is what is out of sight even real, unless I hold on. So this means, I am holding on to ‘X’ firstly, and holding on to the interpretation of ‘X’ as bad, and then holding on to the interpretation that ‘I must escape from ‘X”. I want another reality ‘Y’ which is not there, only ‘X’ is there (because I have held on to it).

So I hide until ‘X’ goes away. Another person can have the same reality structure with only the last element being different. So then, instead of hiding or dissociating from ‘X’, the person tries to beat the ‘X’ out of the other person (say X is an undesirable quality in the other person).

So then the 2 people have more or less the same reality by en-large but in the first case, one hides/dissociates from the other, and in the second case, one attacks/tries to manipulate the other. But the end motive is the same, ‘I WANT TO GET RID of ‘X’. Which is in turn based on believing that X is a reality (it is not really real at all in truth), X is bad (There is no inherent good or bad besides the quality you choose to project).

Regarding the ‘I must get rid of ‘X’, that is just an unnecessary violence against the energy form that your consciousness has taken. Firstly all appearances are YOU, so that energy form is ‘YOU’. Secondly, that energy form is persisting precisely because you are holding on to it and fighting it to get rid of it. It is a ludicrous game where you create your own tiger and then try to fight the tiger to death. This game is unconscious, and once we get conscious of it we can see how ludicrous it is.

Question all the beliefs that I have outlined above and set yourself free from this avoidance, controlling, manipulation, lashing out, dissociation and so on.