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About true love

True love is a combination of “TRUE AND COMPLETE AWARENESS” and a “DEEP DESIRE TO INCLUDE YOU” as themselves.
– Love is when one completely and genuinely understands you, is willing to include you as a part of oneself and treats you with the same utmost good intentions and nurturing with which one treats oneself.
– That willingness to include another as part of oneself is LOVE, and this means you also treat the other with the same ‘interest’/quality as you treat yourself.
– Maybe this desire/magnetism/attraction we feel for another, *IF* we are seeing them as they really are, and not as a projected fantasy, is love.

In most cases it seems, people see the other with projected fantasies.
So they are in other words, in love with their fantasies, and not with the REAL person.
The person who can get infatuated ever so easily but is always disappointed later is basically an expert in projecting all his/her fantasy on a girl/guy which lasts until the trance is lost and eventually they start to see the reality of the person.

So maybe we could say:
TRUE LOVE (as a verb) = Perception of the deepest soul/mind/emotion/body essence of the other + WILLINGNESS/DESIRE to include the other AS THEY REALLY ARE.
TRUE LOVE (as a noun) = To be unioned with the other and treating them the same as you treat yourself. Your self itself is now expanded to include the other. In such a state there is no desire for the other, because desire is possible only for something that is not you. You cannot desire yourself, you are ONE with yourself, you ARE yourself, you are unioned with yourself. Like a flame cannot burn itself. The experience of this is of self transcendence, expanded self. You no longer crave for the object, because you have completely unioned with it.

So the different levels of are:
When both are separate selves having desire:
– Desiring you with attachment – keeps you in a prison, but gives you the upliftment of being desired.
– Desiring you without attachment – frees you, but also gives you the upliftment of being desired.
Merger stage:
Both mutually include each other into their beings
– Gives great satisfaction, comfort, expansion, union, self-transcendence (to the degree of including another), joy.
– Interestingly there is no more desire at this stage. There is an intense union that the two are ONE. So there is no insecurity, fear, guilt, obligation and so on, because such emotions are only possible towards an ‘other’.
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Astral anima and animus

My anima is an astral entity – from my imagination.
I want to union with my anima.
Union is even beyond trust.
The astral anima is not constrained by space and time and is the true form you desire.
To imagine her fully, first image her physical form in your imagination.
Then imagine her qualities and delve into the experiences you would feel through her contact with you.
At the physical level, the deepest connection limit is sex.
But at the astral level, a far deeper unlimited inter-penetrating union and connection is possible.
The astral partner far transcends the physical.
Energy of my anima – happy, frolicking, very light hearted, very forgiving, accepting, caring, nurturing, reciprocating, allowing, receptive, listens deeply, soft, cherishing, delicate, focused, truly giving, deeply trusting, innocent, ecstatic, euphoric, warm, very kind hearted, unconditionally loving (gives infinite freedom), penetrates my every fiber with softness, flexible, caressing, naughty and playful, involves me, accommodating, highly inclusive, true embracing, generous, graceful, gentle, flowing, no edges and curvy, deep receiver, non-dismissive, deep desire to union with me, cheery, full of life and energy, aliveness, she is always there, dependable under any conditions, tender, patient, helps/nurtures you be exactly what you dream of, highly comfortable with herself, beautiful, pretty, charming, strong in the Yin way, deeply perceptive, artistic, sensual, sexual,  affectionate, sharing, flow, radiance, surrender, deep empathy.

Similarly, I also have the energy of the animus in my imagination.
NOTE: Anima and animus are complementary, not opposites.
Energy of my animus – Wise, strong, hard, intelligent, determination, courage, persistence, transcends everything, highly focused, great knowledge, confident, powerful, overcomer, innovator, achiever of goals, purposeful, force, shoulders responsibility, precise, clarity, firmness, intention, active, driven, ambitious, brilliant mind, integrity, stability, freedom, independence, awareness, direction, logic, passion, breakthrough insights.
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What is living in emptiness?

In Experience, there is Inflow –> Outflow.
When there is no holding on at all, 100% inflow = 100% outflow.
This is called living in absolute freedom or emptiness.
Like to give an analogy living in this emptiness is like –
You can eat whatever you want and in any amount and it will go out of you without sticking to you one bit through your stools.
Imagine the freedom and happiness that would bring.
In the enlightenment case, this food analogy applies to experience.
You experience everything fully, SO FULLY that nothing sticks.
100% IN = 100% OUT.
And this can expand to infinity as a result.
We are afraid because we are worried something will stick.
But what if everything can be released with 0 stickiness or holding on.
Then you will forever be empty.
You can take INFINITY IN and the INFINITY will go out, allowing another infinity into you and so on.
It is ABSOLUTE FREEDOM.
Everything is then a singular changing consciousness.
[100% inflow = 100% outflow] = Emptiness = 100% Allowing = Infinite freedom to contents = 100% disinterest and dispassion to content = Incredible contentment, happiness and awareness.
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Why do the psyche’s mirror from the perspective of a singular consciousness?

Because consciousness is the indra’s net. Your projections are mirrored and reflected back to you from everywhere.
Like when you love an object, you will feel the object loves you back too.
When you love a person, you will feel that person’s loves you back too.
When you love the world, you will feel the world loves you back too.
When you hate the world, you will feel the world hates you too.
Even the masks get projected back to you many a times.
For example: If you project hostility with the mask of civility – you will feel others are doing the same thing. That they are hiding hostility behind their civility.
Another example: If you hate the world, but are just acting nice – you would see others the same way, that they too act nice, but inside are hating you and the world.
So your own mind is externalized and the projections you give out are mirrored back to you from other people, world, and its objects.
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Dark night experience as an unmoving sleep psyche/spirit

The problem in the Dark Night of the soul, is an asleep un-moving stagnant psyche. So it is like murky water that gives a browny reflection of everything vs. clear water that reflects all the colors. It is a case where certain colorings stick into the eye of seeing itself. Or the dark night can be said to be similar to dark clouds, that cloud feeling either completely OR cloud up 90% of everything.

There is a stagnancy, unmovingness of psyche. And all our aliveness is based on the changing psyche which changes and mirrors the sensory information. In other words, all of reality is interpretation OR input processing (as said by Charles Tart – States of consciousness). In the spectrum of consciousness, if lower consciousness is reduced possibility, and higher consciousness is closer to infinite possibility, “dark night” is to be pulled into reduced possibility, deprivation, into lower consciousness.

It is a state much closer to death – in terms of profound loss. Its like your inner child has gone into coma. So you perceive everything entering through your senses, but nothing moves your rigid calloused psyche much. So this unfeeling, unemoting, unconnecting state is the state of great deprivation. That is then we realize that this world is ALIVE only when our psyche projections are alive and dancing. Else the sensory input is devoid of all pleasure and meaning (meaning = pleasure). The world is alive when our psyche is 100% responsive to sensory input. When the psyche is mostly unresponsive and stuck in a dark cloud of feeling, then all the sensory input enters, but we feel very little, it all means nothing.

What dies/or goes into coma/or transformation sleep is spirit and then we realize ‘WHAT A LOSS IT IS TO LOSE SPIRIT”. It is unbearable. That is truly the most precious thing. Without spirit what is the use of anything, there is 0 will to live.
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Our entire experience is of aggregates, ultimately made up of spirit

Just like we experience other physical entities in the physical plane (whom we refer to as other people),
we similarly have emotional entities, thought entities, belief/world creator entities,
i.e. subtle entities living in the etheric, astral planes.

Now remember, physical entities are gross entities.
They do not independently exist, but rather they are simply aggregates of other subtle entities.
For example a certain aggregate of a belief/world creator, thought, emotion entities make up the physical entity.

Each gross is an aggregate of its previous subtle entity.
For instance:
A physical entity is an aggregate of the emotion entity
(what does it mean to be physical, physicality is a certain class of feeling, correct?)
An emotional entity is basically an aggregate of a thought entity.
(What is emotion but a juicy thought, OR a thought aggregate. A more detailed explanation for this would be, each thought is an experience. Now imagine, a bunch of thoughts combine themselves together in a relationship, this aggregate story thought generates a stronger experience we term emotion).
A thought entity is a formation based of the world creator building blocks. So a thought is again an aggregate of those even subtler belief/world creator block paradigms.
Now what creates the very lego blocks for the worlds – in which aggregates of thought, emotion, physical exist?
We can call that spirit/God/Consciousness and so on and end the abstraction here.

So if all the entities – Belief/Worlds, Thoughts, Emotion, Physical are simply aggregates, then everything is ultimately an aggregate of Spirit/God/Consciousness.
We are all basically God, but each with different aggregates – belief/thought/emotion/physical aggregate experiences.

Its just like from Gross to Subtle we have – Ether, Air, Water, Solids.
To give an analogy, its like:
Ether = Worlds, Beliefs, Paradigms
Air = Mental
Water = Emotion
Solids = Physical
Even here if you notice each gross is an aggregate of its preceding subtle.
The atoms of ether come together to form air.
Molecules of air come together to form Water.
Water comes together and congeals into a solid or ICE.
But ultimately everything is made up of atoms.
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My experience of the dark night

– In my experience, the dark night basically symbolizes something analogous to the formation of a new government(self) and a falling away of the old government. In between this process, when there is no government, there is anarchy.
– Another analogy would be the transformation of a caterpillar -> cocoon -> butterfly.

With the loss of the core self, there is chaos, anarchy in the psyche.
No channelizing force(self) has emerged yet.

So then a good way to describe this experience would be, imagine a video game with a 1000 characters.
Say 20 of them form the government. Let’s say you experience the game from the eyes of these 20 people government force who are more or less in agreement with each other about policies, direction, purpose and so on.
Now lets say gradually this government completes its purpose or realizes its illusions and falls away.
What happens next? There is anarchy.
The 1000 characters now have no ruler or organization that rules.
Now instead of experiencing from the eyes of the 20 people government force who were in agreement, you start experiencing the world from various smaller random groups of people.
Every time you shift to another group’s or individual’s eyes, you entire view of everything changes.
You experience different isolated people/factions point of view from their eyes.

This is akin to the experience of the dark night where there is emptiness of meaning, and temporary meanings are just generated depending on which random group’s/isolated person’s eyes you are viewing from.
This happens, until all the 1000 people or most of them come together and form a new self/government.
This is the formation of the new self.
The REAL YOU however is simply the witness watching this whole game play out.
Only the apparent characters/viewpoints etc. shift in the game.
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Silencing of the physical, emotion, thought fields to reach ‘What is’

Desire is just like Aversion
It is a prison
A sensation that comes into you, that impels you into some kind of action
Action in the gross(Physical) or subtle(Thought)
The true innermost will cannot manifest itself in experience when there is desire/aversion.

The way out is to delegate/surrender/release/let go.
Give full freedom to each atom of your experience.
Withdraw energy from the gross and bring it down to silence.
Also ensure that each ‘experience atom’ is independent, untangled
And no part is controlling any other part

The whole prison is of experience.
What controls our experience? What do we give energy to?
What we give energy to, is precisely the component of experience that persists.
The insight I had on LSD was – “What you experience is exactly what you are holding on to”.

This life for me, has been about the bottoming out my unconscious – of both gross pleasures/pains, subtle pleasure/pains, and the subtlest pleasures/pains.
Which is why I experienced a magnificent buffet in this life of various pleasure/pain experiences in various spectrums.

The experiences that are persistent have to be released.
These persistent experiences can range from the Gross (physical pains) to the Subtlest (a certain world view).
One must settle in complete equanimity and completely quell(silence) the vibration of the physical, energy, thought worlds. Total silence in all 3, can bring transparency into ‘What is’.
The silencing is done by withdrawing your energy from the grosser forms of experience.

First entirely still your body and then withdraw energy from all gross movement.
Now, you will be witnessing your emotion and thought fields moving in your experience.
In the next step, withdraw energy from your emotions and silence them.
Keep very finely observing your emotions in a detached disinterested manner
Do this until there is great stillness of emotion.
When you reach a certain stillness, you will only notice 2 things, your breathing and heartbeat.
Continue fine observation of this duo (breathing and heart) beat until they both become very subtle.
Now, the interesting part starts. You will now ride on the breath and heartbeat like a surfer rides a wave.
You will literally move with your breath and heartbeat and stabilize its vibration at each moment.
Your breath and heartbeat are like your VEHICLES for the next steps.
Now with both the physical and the emotions still, and with you simply riding the VEHICLE of (breath, heartbeat), your experience now consists of only the movements of the thought field.
The movements of the thought field are for example, how you spoke to yourself internally and guided yourself to this state. This internal talk that you did, is from the thought field.
Silence the talk.
Now again look deeply in your experience and try to silence all energy movements of thought.
Stay in this absolute still state for as long as you want.
This is where I have reached so far.
At this point of time, you will experience great peace, bliss, relief.

We usually do not witness ‘What is’ but rather we only witness the “stuck grosser entities”.
Like imagine if there were worms swimming in the vitreous humor fluid inside your eye.
Where-ever you look you would see those worms right. Our usual state is something like that.
The entities in the physical, emotion, thought and belief planes constantly obscure the TRUE reality.
The thing that is sticking can be a gross entity dominating experience, or a subtle entity like an identity giving the illusion of freedom.
But this freedom is not real freedom, it is conditioned narrowed freedom.
No matter how open minded you may be, some inner algorithm is still imprisoning you.
Freedom is an intuitive sense of potentials, possibilities and expanse.
Its all in your intuitive feeling of what you identify yourself as.
Basically you move your identification away from regular ego to the transcendent object.
Once this is done, your older identity is still available completely but it rests as only one of the possibilities of the infinite seed you have become.
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Seeing in emptiness is basically seeing in absolute clarity:

(Note: Emptiness == Non-substantial, Temporal, Impermanent)
When all objects of awareness are seen in complete clarity, it means the perception of the object is penetrating the object fully and revealing its emptiness. So seeing things in emptiness – is to see things as they really are – it is to completely see the nature of the object as a “consciousness object” and to simultaneously also never lose sight of the “background of emptiness” on which the temporal object appears and disappears. It is to never lose sight/awareness of the “background screen”.

Its like being in a movie theater and never losing sight that you are viewing a screen with images projected on the screen. It is never losing sight of your true nature i.e. of being the screen itself and the images that the screen turns itself into. The ‘images that appear/movies that play’ on the screen are an ultimate “Mystery”. “All experience” is truly a “Mystery”.

We are stepping into this mystery every moment, but at the same time, we have never EVER left our nature of being CONSCIOUSNESS.