Journey to the Abstract

All belief created realities are equivalent when seen in their totality just like all movies are equivalent in their totality. So if I’m trying to find truth IN THE MOVIE, I just find the truth of the movie contents, but when the movie changes, then again, the contents change and I find the truth of the new movie.

But the real transcendent truth is beyond the movies(Appearances). The real truth, is the one taste, the one unifying substance of all belief created realities (of all of reality itself). The movies may have recurring themes of varying abstractness, but the transcendent truth unifies all of the movies.

The transcendent truth is independent of the specific movie appearing on the screen. It is the quality of ‘MOVIENESS’ itself which applies to all of the movies appearing no matter what.

The energy of creation is Love.

The energy of manifestation movement is Love. (Note: Manifestation is movement in duality, no movement = no manifestation of anything whatsoever)

Love energy = Creation, Gain

Loss of Love = Removal, Depression, Loss

The will to do something, even the will to live, is a manifestation of ‘Love energy’.

When this love energy is lost, it is felt as depression and all your creations(devoid of love now) become a burden to you.

Just like absence makes presence fonder, the loss of love sharpens the perception of love itself (just like you can see light the most only when you emerge from darkness).

In other words, all manifestation is out of love i.e. a spontaneous creative act.

If that is the case,

– Suffering experience is from a love for suffering

– Pain experience is from a love for pain

– Defiance is from a love for defiance

Similarly, love for torture, love for laziness, love for hate, just about any negative thing you can come up with has the energy of love/creation driving it.

Love is the energy driving ALL OF THE MANIFEST. The concept is transcendent. It is something like the concept of presence. There is only presence and absence is also a kind of presence only ‘the presence of absence’. Similarly, love is the energy behind all movement in the experience field, call it -ve, +ve, its irrelevant.

What you love, you become. Its just a matter of time. See beyond the time dimension and its clear they both are ONE THING. You are already your desire/what you love.

The ‘becoming’ illusion is a transformation that happens in time.  Its like solid becomes liquid and then becomes a gas as we heat it. The substance has changed form, but it is still the same essential substance right no matter what the form – solid, liquid or gas?. This is something similar. Similarly here, potential –> Kinetic energy is a transformation we see in time, but when seen outside the time dimension, they both are ONE. Your potential/desire/what you love is EXACTLY what you will eventually become. Things may appear to stop this process, but for how long, this potential energy when given the opportunity will convert itself to kinetic becoming. You ALREADY ARE your desire if seen from a perspective transcendent of time.

If a person constantly gets themselves in a bad, low vibration, dull, heavy, sticky mood, listless mood and then demands that the other get into the same state of feeling in the name of care, love, concern, empathy and love, something is SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY wrong and needs to be urgently investigated!!!! Those words need serious redefinition.

Emotions like Fear, Guilt, Shame, Neglect, Dissociation only exist in darkness.

Imagine you had a mansion with 10 rooms. 3 of them, you have decorated and visit everyday. But the other 7, you have locked them up and believe that there is something terrible in each of them. You never open those doors because of that belief.

These beliefs/imaginations/stories about what lies behind those doors is stuff like:

Fear(something in the room will scare the shit out of you)

Guilt(something in the room will make you a slave and subjugate you)

Shame (something horrible is inside this room)

Neglect (something totally worthless is there inside)

Dissociation (could be a combo of something worthless, horrible, scary, subjugating)

So I say, its all darkness, because, what is in the room is not known to awareness. The belief shadows the whole of these rooms.

This question is irrelevant. After all, if you ARE with WHAT IS happening, then there is no fragment to stand apart and judge the other fragments as good or bad. You are so totally THAT, that the judger too gets absorbed into the THAT.

In emotions we broadly have focusing/narrowing/inhibiting/coalescing emotions and dispersing/spreading/disinhibiting/freeing emotions. Additional each of those emotion types could be +ve or -ve.

In short:
Focusing emotions (+ve, -ve)
Dispersing emotions (+ve, -ve)

Focusing emotions:

Shame, Guilt, Fear – Inhibitory, Negative Controlling & Focusing of Attention

Curiosity, Fascination, Passion – Inhibitory, Positive Controlling & Focusing of Attention

Dispersing emotions:

Wonder, Love, Creativity – Dis-inhibiting, Positive, Freeing of Attention

Chaos, Confusion, Spacing out – Dis-inhibiting, Negative, Freeing of Attention

The truth needs no borrowed energy. It is absolutely effortless, spontaneous and independent. The false stuff (maintained through stress and borrowed energy) has to be done away with to find the truth.

I initially started observing that I could stay equanimous at the sensation level (esp. vipassana retreat) i.e. which is essentially no pushing or pulling at any sensation, at the sensation level. Then later, I noticed the same exact thing also applies to the thought level.

What is our reaction to thought – push or a pull. For some thoughts we react with a pushing force (i.e. we try to push them away). For certain other thoughts, there is a pulling force (i.e. we try to pull it towards us, it could be for various reasons, even when we are intently trying to solve our long standing problem, or when we get obsessed with something, we are pulling on it).

It is possible to be equanimous at both levels i.e. no push, pull in sensation and no push, pull in the thought space. In reality there is no separate thought space and sensation space. They both permeate each other. The gross and the subtle permeate each other and exist in the same singular space of awareness.

You will never find what you seek by striving for it. Because that is the game itself. It is a fractal game that plays endlessly. There is no end-point in anything. Everything eternally moves. Absolutely, there is nowhere to go, nothing to attain/seek/do.

This game space/sandbox allows you to play any kind of game forever. Can you even imagine a time in your life when you would have satisfied every possible desire and you have completely finished it up? Nope. No such end point exists. In fact if at all it exists, it exists NOW, this moment is the Nirvana, if you surrender completely to it, that is the ultimate satisfaction and mystical moment you can have. Because you cannot find yourself, but looking outside of in Time or Space.