You will never find what you seek by striving for it. Because that is the game itself. It is a fractal game that plays endlessly. There is no end-point in anything. Everything eternally moves. Absolutely, there is nowhere to go, nothing to attain/seek/do.
This game space/sandbox allows you to play any kind of game forever. Can you even imagine a time in your life when you would have satisfied every possible desire and you have completely finished it up? Nope. No such end point exists. In fact if at all it exists, it exists NOW, this moment is the Nirvana, if you surrender completely to it, that is the ultimate satisfaction and mystical moment you can have. Because you cannot find yourself, but looking outside of in Time or Space.