Journey to the Abstract

It is the separate self that suffers.
The separateness and presence of other is in ITSELF a suffering.
There is only one energy, all inclusive.
That energy is me. I am THAT, and have never been anything else.

Separateness is the illusion created by veiling the underlying reality of unity oneness.
It is done intentionally by spirit to experience itself from a part of itself, just like you dream at night as a person in a place but when you wake up you realize the dream was nothing leaving only faint memories behind if you choose to remember the souvenirs from the dream.
Similarly, this waking seemingly persistent dream occupied by others and materials, is just a longer dream.

It is like you choose to play a particular game on the computer everyday from 8am to 12pm.
Say you forget after a while that it is you who choose this.
Now you start to believe the nature of the computer is the game.
But actually it is one of infinite possibilities.
The question to ask is, why do you choose to be AS this reality?
There is no factual world.
No countries, no towns, no other people, relatives, mother and so on.
It is you who chooses to see reality that way with all those entities and relationships.

Ask yourself a deeper question, why do I choose to be like this?
This is a deeper choice you have made and forgotten.
It has got veiled from you because of your superficiality.
Ask yourself with all your heart, why are you like this and go silent and deeply feel into the answer.
The deepest knowing is sensation. Look for the deepest sensation.
Why have you chosen this?
This question also gives you an opportunity to claim what you have disempowered yourself from.
As Terrence McKenna would say “reclaim your mind”.

There are no facts in reality, there is no objective reality.
You do not REALLY have a mother.
Even biological processes and physical laws do not bind you and are not fact but rather they represent the UNCLAIMED part of your consciousness.

Whatever you feel and experience fully, vanishes.
Experience potentials are open or available at each moment.
And one moves into these potentials like a fractal moves through.
The only moment of choice is the present moment.

One has to gas-through all of the experiences and pass through them fully.
Each experience is a training or learning that one passes through.
You might keep repeating the experiences (or the themes) you do not learn from until you get the insight.

You could have done, you should have done
Should, ought, must, could have
These words are just the ego controlling experience

Guess what, the bad relationship that you had
Which you feel you should have left but didn’t,
It had to be that way.
The struggle cannot be avoided because the ego only thinks and reprimands itself in hindsight.
It is out if touch with the mysterious present which is the real mover.
The rest is just about analyzing the wake of the ship (where the ship is the real present moment)
As long as you don’t look closely, you believe you are in control
But if you really look closely it will get more and more mysterious.

All guilting happens only from being inauthentic and doing inauthentic service.
That is when you demand gratefulness.
Actions done from self itself are selfless because they come with no agenda or vested interests.
It is doing the thing for the thing itself
It is doing it for the pure interest spontaneity flow love joy of it
Else the service is contrived, and it guilts the other and demands for it.

Nobody from outside can provide true support
It is only subtle or spirit that is the support of everything
If spirit is not supporting, nothing from outside can help
It will only work as a temporary crutch like a dialysis machine
It’s better to surrender and change than to cling to outside supports maintaining ‘spirit vacated’ realities.

It is only spirit that upholds everything and transforms everything
Rest is just an illusion
That means there is no fact at all, nothing objective
All experience is created and dissolved by spirit, all is aliveness
Spirit is the most powerful and singular force that creates and moves everything

Each and every person is supported by spirit
The spirit/oversoul that creates the characters of the play
The oversoul can individually withdraw power from a single character because it is the real creator and destroyer of all the characters and it keeps the character unconscious of the knowledge that the character is actually the oversoul pretending to be the character
It applies this veil and thereby the unity becomes multiplicity
Now each other character from the perspective of the imagined conjured character becomes a mysterious unknown other
Ignorance is created about the other and the character goes into the pursuit of understanding the other.

Every country is an assertion of individuality and boundary.
Trade between countries is relationship.
The same rules apply to the microcosm.
We exist as individuals with boundaries.
As above so below.

Like every country has a personality producing desirable goods for trade.
Even shops and businesses represent personalities.
Even the fruit ‘orange’ has a personality essence.
All are varying degrees of dynamic essence.
From different universes to different atoms, all are unique personalities.

The brain is simply a channeler of influences.
It is only an “experience” access instrument like a radio.
Memories are not stored in the brain.

Giving birth to a child is not a job but a work of art. And what does a work of art require? – sustained interest desire attention, facilitation for it to flourish. It is like nurturing a plant. You cannot make the plant grow or create it. You are simply a facilitator, nurturer and giver of conditions for it to flourish. Growth of the child happens from the seed which was already in place as divine potential. Every child is a divine potential seed, just like plants grow from seeds. Deciding to have a child is like deciding to tend for such a seed. It should be done for the joy of it and for no other reason. If one tends for a plant only so that you can eat it’s fruit that is not out of love but it is out of agenda. So one should ask sincerely ‘Why do I want a child? What is the real reason?’ Do I have the capacity? Do I have other preoccupations? Am I really available for someone else? Do I feel integrated myself and happy with life to take on this?

Responsibility and love are the opposites of each other. Responsibility is burden, duty, weight. Love is celebration joy free lightness. They are opposites. If you feel a child is a burden to you, then first solve your burdens and invest energy into that instead of bringing a child into the world to escape your own burdens and making the child responsible for all that you carry like a scapegoat.

It is intention and ultimately consciousness that determines how you use everything. For evil or good. Anything can be a weapon or blessing. Even a pillow can be used as a weapon of murder, if a person with such an intent sees the world. He would see everything as a weapon. The opposite is true for a person with good intent, he would use everything as a tool for upliftment – like say use a knife to heal someone.