Ego is not the controller of experience

You could have done, you should have done
Should, ought, must, could have
These words are just the ego controlling experience

Guess what, the bad relationship that you had
Which you feel you should have left but didn’t,
It had to be that way.
The struggle cannot be avoided because the ego only thinks and reprimands itself in hindsight.
It is out if touch with the mysterious present which is the real mover.
The rest is just about analyzing the wake of the ship (where the ship is the real present moment)
As long as you don’t look closely, you believe you are in control
But if you really look closely it will get more and more mysterious.