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Nature of structures and projection mapping

The world seems to have various emotion/projection mapping matrixes.
Like various activities – mapped to various emotions.
Everything going in circles everywhere. That is the wheel of samsara I would surmise.
Projection mappings to various structures.
The free market and products are essentially selling “Inviting structures” for people to invest their projections in.
The steps are simple:
Create a structure –> Try to consolidate/ground your structure into the already existing frameworks (existing through history) –> Use persuasion/enticing/influencing/subliminal/marketing techniques to create the attraction –> Get people to invest their projections –> Once a sufficient number of people have invested their projections, a GRAVITY is created drawing more and more.
The idea is to build on the mega-investment of the world as it is. Like everything starts off as a seed (like say capitalism) and then as more and more people get invested, more and more creation happens, later all creations are simply standing on the shoulders of the giant already created.
What kind of a stupid game is this? which EVERYONE IS PLAYING?
What if interest in the entire Goliath structure (existing through history) and the people investing further on its shoulders – what if this entire interest is lost?
Basically I have LOST INTEREST in ALL GAMES. Everything is just a structure on which I invest my projections on. Earlier the mappings were UNCONSCIOUS and I took them as TRUTH. But now I see the truth is NOTHING OF THAT, and all those MAPPINGS are simply unconscious mappings. They are PRISONS when seen with the light of consciousness.
When fully consciousness, the sheer magnitude/amount of imprisonment and helplessness is seen through, the sheer magnitude of the task ahead for consciousness to harmonize. With such a massive magnitude, it creates a HUGE HUGE desire to be FREE.
The cloud of unknowing – a divine process is initiated. Until this cloud processes your reality, you will be living in deprivation (Dark night – which is basically loss of projection potentials – a death of potentials/projections). The super structure of the mind (the concept of the entire physical world in included in that) is the matrix, on which our various projections are caught up/stuck.
We have to reclaim them back and only invest anything as a conscious choice.
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Dark night is the receding of libido to the unconscious

Let’s say, God/Self/Soul/Spirit is in the deepest depth of the unconscious (also said by Carl Jung).
Now, the libido/interest of the self usually resides both in the conscious and unconscious.
What happens in the dark night depression is basically a soul retrieval where, the libido is brought back to God which is in the deepest depths of the unconscious.
As the libido withdraws itself from the consciousness screen, your interests start to decline.
When almost the entire libido has withdrawn from consciousness, there is 0 interest in the ‘Entire consciousness screen’.
So in such a case, you are not interested in ANYTHING and also lose all will to live, because the entirety of the libido has moved to the unconscious.
All you have now in your consciousness is various manifestations/things of god, but 0 interest and possibly even a distaste.
There is incredible despair and all you want is to die/completely change/completely transform. But you dont see any way of that happening. So you just surrender to the mystery because with the loss of all hope, there is nothing to do but surrender. This drives the libido into intense contemplation and there is a cloud of unknowing across your entire consciousness screen because of withdrawal of interest which creates the dark night.
Eventually, the libido reaches the self(depth of unconscious), the experience of everything fundamentally changes, illumination happens and you are transformed.
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Libido = Interest = Heart = Inspiration = Love

Libido = Interest = Heart = Inspiration = Love
All 5 seem to be the same.
They are all in the realm of feelings.
Knowledge and skills are an accumulation that happens through the above 5.
The 5 are absurd and mysterious, an unfolding.
The reasons we give for their existence is also because of interest/libido/heart/inspiration/love, i.e. interest in giving a reason.
In other words, there is no REAL reason for ‘Why you like what you like’.
But there are ‘Apparent reasons’ (i.e. reasons based on how far you can deduce and based on your logic models).
The ‘First Cause/Reason’ is a mystery.
The dark night case: RETURN TO THE ABSTRACT – The Journey
The libido/interest/heart/inspiration/love going back into God/Source withdrawing from all creation/(things of God) and progressively stepping into the unknown abstract is part and parcel of the dark night. It is the RETURN TO THE ABSTRACT (the most abstract/subtle being God). The interest in concrete stuff is left behind and the interest moves into subtler and subtler (more and more abstract) realms until it returns to the infinite abstract i.e. God. This requires a withdrawal from all CREATION/THINGS OF GOD and RETURN TO THE GROUND OF BEING.
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All experience is from the Mystery

All experience is from ‘God/Mystery/Ultimate’.
The only thing to do is ‘Experience Fully’.
Stay in full ‘clarity’.
Take full power of consciousness.
Let the ‘Now’ moment be the reality all the time.
Be aware of all ‘Doing’.
Even my ‘self’ is an unconscious ‘doing’ I do.
All attachment must be released to let everything flow.
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Thoughts about ‘potentials of experience’

Birth is basically birth of a potential.
The feeling of potential OR possibilities is what is felt in childhood.
The experience of death is the experience of loss of potential.
There is the experience of great potential – which is divine inspiration.
There is the experience of little potential – seen as depression (loss of what is loved, which is inspiration)
The attachment is attachment to potentials of experience.
Are we afraid of pain, or are we basically afraid of loss?
Is pain concomitant with loss?
Loss of what we love?
Loss of what we are attached to?
Not necessarily specific objects but it could also be the loss of abstract objects like – loss of ability to verbalize, loss of ability to communicate, loss of ability to understand/make sense of anything, loss of the potential to feel/to think, loss of familiarity – replacement of what is loved with the dual – insecurity, chaos, ambiguity, unknowing, evil, suffering, separation (if what is loved is – security, coherence, clarity, knowing, good, peace, union).
Loss of capacities of psyche – for example you may hear music but not in the matching energetic frequency to sync with it, harmonize with it, union with it.
Death is basically fading away of potentials.
When most potentials fall away, you are left with your root potentials.
The deepest potential loss if ego death, where the potential to ‘selfing’ is lost.
Energy gives rise to potentials. 
Energy = Potentials. Loss of energy = loss of potentials. Energy is similar to money.
When you have a lot of money – a lot of potentials open up. You may or may not use them. But if you have no money, you don’t have those potentials either.
So dark night is basically loss of potentials and the grieving of loss of potentials.
The depression is from the loss of potentials. The struggle is 2 faced: on the one hand, shortage of energy makes living daily life expectations a stretch and difficult – its as if your fatigued and exhausted all the time. The 2nd struggle is the depression itself because of grieving the loss of potentials which were once there.
Rest in the potentials of ‘What is’ as it appears NOW.
Because I see potentials, I never feel like I’ve done a good enough job at anything.
Because I know what it is to really know something. But thats the interesting part, there is nowhere to go. So it does not matter. I can simply observe how far I can see and how far I’ve reached without investment and simply allow happening.
All potentials have to be dealt with equanimity:
Some potentials are karmic repetitive cyclic, habitual and occur with triggers.
So I just patiently observe what happens, the mechanism, what the trigger is and so on.
All my memories are potentials for experiences.
Even recalling them is potentials for experiences.
So the push/pull, grasping/pushing, craving/aversion, attachment/repulsion apply to all potentials too.
All experience is empty – positive and negative.
Experience itself is empty in all its infinite forms. Its a lila/play/dance of empty experiences. There is 100% change. Memory is the only tool we use to hold on. Actually, memory also when seen is simply another empty changing experience. This is the truth of emptiness.
That is why there is nowhere to go, nothing to do, nothing to be, because the potential driving the need to go, do, be itself is also an empty appearance. This potential is not you. You are simply nothing, or the ground of all appearances/experiences. All experiences are appearances. There is only an eternal free fall into emptiness dancing as forms.
 
As the fire of illumination fills you up, the truth of NOW becomes obvious. The ISness, the YOU ARE THAT. I am the ground of all experience. The ONE TASTE, the unitive flavor of all opposites, everything is ultimately experience, and all experience is empty when seen closely (because it changes).
What we are scared of/fear is also potentials:
Heaven is the potential for gain, joy, pleasure and happiness.
Hell is the potential for loss, suffering, misery, struggle.
Like what is horror, to be stuck in a reality that threatens everything you love, everything you are, everything you are attached to.
A union is made, when 2 potentials match each other.
Which is sharing the same goals.
The highest potential is God Awareness.
So 2 people in the goal to reach God awareness can have the potential for highest union.
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The journey to the Effortless, Causeless Reality

Your egoic actions change the causeless, effortless reality(God’s karma) into a caused, effort created reality (causation bound, personal karma) which follows cause-effect rules.
But the causeless reality always lies underneath, when all effort is dropped.
Effort created reality in fact rides on the eternal wave of the causeless reality.
Why do we not drop all effort?
Because we are attached or identified with effort created realities.
So as the penetration of the fire of consciousness happens, the effortless reality is accepted more and more and the effortful or effort created reality is relinquished.
Eventually, one’s abides in the causeless, effortless reality and acts from God’s will and relinquishes all personal will to God (which is the truth anyway, even personal will is given to us by God only, but we think we exist as something separate with autonomy, the realization here would be of the fact that ‘There is no doer apart from God’).
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About me: I am an EXPERIENCE EAGLE

Flying-Eagle

I am an EXPERIENCE EAGLE.
Its a symbolism, metaphor – to the physical eagle.
The experience eagle wanting freedom to fly to any territory it feels like (across time and space).

Each person and obligations is like me(i.e. the eagle) tied to a certain location in time and space. He cannot fly far away from that place since it has to come back to fulfill the obligations. Certain potentials of experience are not available because they are too far from where he is and he cannot leave his attachments and get there. Like there is an attachment to the ‘potential’ plane of manifestation of existing as a body itself.
This explains his longing for FREEDOM of EXPERIENCE.

So this eagle explores various territories of experiences and does great things in each area that he touches due to his sharp vision. But he cannot hold on to everything. He knows internally he is infinitely capable and potent. But each time, people only judge him based on the narrow criteria that exists – on the exact patch of land he has landed on. The eagle wishes someone would really see who he is and his stature. But nobody on land can see that. For that the eagle would have to fly with another eagle to varied territories and reveal his vision and skills in each area. The irony is that, this eagle is an orphan. His parents are not eagles but rather pure land animals like deers. So the eagle’s parents absolutely don’t understand him. The most humiliating part is, they see him as a deer and not as an eagle at all. That too, an insufficient deer. So the eagle also lives a double life as a deer as a mask to all land animals through his parents training.

But once out of bondage, he secretly flies to all the territories and regions. The eagle longs to be free of this false deer (land animal) self. But however he needs to come to land to fulfill his needs. So the eagle keeps a very touch and go relationship with the land animals and even his own parents. ‘Do what is needed, get needs fulfilled and LEAVE’ is his motto. But in that process, he gets trapped into various kinds of bondages. In case he reduces his relationships drastically with land animals, then, he is left alone in the sky and has to come to the land to fend for himself which is a severe struggle and stress for the eagle.

So much so, he becomes so weak with stress, he cannot even fly. He spends his limited energy mostly on the land, trying to get his needs met, just so that he can fly for a little time in the evening. He wishes he never needed the land at all and simply live in the air and get nourished from light. But he has to accept his needs, both the land needs and the air needs and try to find a way to get both met in a great way.

He wishes there was another eagle to help him out and show him how to live great. Since he is an orphan and since NOBODY else in the whole world is an eagle, he is abjectly alone. His only inspiration is from God itself. The appearance is such that, it is just Him and God. Nobody else ever sees him or understands him the way he really is. Its almost like, he is the ‘son of god’ alone (like Jesus was) with a huge bunch of earthling land creatures and small birds. All his nourishment and all his suffering comes directly from God and there is nobody to buffer his hardships in life. Few comforting relationships happen, but they are let go, because of severe land bondage. How can he live on land, when his true place is in the air? The land animals would never understand because they do not even know what being in the air is like. So they think it is unnecessary and try to get the eagle to fit into their systems which permanently tethers the eagle to fulfilling all kinds of duties on land.
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Mind and Heart

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A very simple but effective model for our EXPERIENCE would be to divide it into ‘Mind’ and ‘Heart’.
The ‘Heart’ is the master which gives ‘context’ to the mind or what ‘direction’ the mind should follow.
The mind’s task is to satisfy the heart by using its powers.
The heart is basically ‘What you feel’, your feelings, whose epicenter is in the solar plexus area.
The mind on the other hand has its epicenter in the forehead between the eyebrows.
The heart represents the mystery of life. Its not logical/rational and does not follow any conceptualized rules.
The heart is absurd to the mind, when seen from the mind’s point of view.
But ultimately it is the heart that gives the very context for the mind and its goals.
To keep both in harmony, it is necessary to pay equal attention to both.
The Heart = Love, Interest, Feeling
The Mind = Wisdom, Knowledge
Also, the ‘Heart’ overall is the master.
The mind should take the subordinate role to the heart.
Ultimately, the models of the mind should serve the heart.
This is because, existence is a mystery and the heart and feelings are the compass in this mystery, not the mind.
The mind is like a torchlight used by the heart to navigate this mystery.
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Truth can only be found in YOUR Experience

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In the diagram, observers 1-9 wear the consensus reality lens and see the ‘Consensus Truth’.
Observers 10,11,12 are in altered realities and see 3 truths respectively – truth1, truth2, truth3
The consensus truth is not THE TRUTH which is the mistake science commonly makes, because it does not take into account the observer and his/her lens itself which conditions what is seen. What if the lens itself is changed? (As what happens when on psychedelics).
The REAL TRUTH = {consensus truth, truth1, truth2, truth3………………….truth (n)}
So the entire consensus reality we take to be the truth is only one of the possibilities of REAL TRUTH.
Ultimately there is only reality as YOUR INNER EXPERIENCE.
Even your perception of others, the world, the outside and so on, is YOUR INNER EXPERIENCE.
There is NOTHING APART from your INNER EXPERIENCE.
The CONSENSUS REALITY is also part of your INNER REALITY (or inner experience).
The consensus reality can be said to be the common denominator of inner realities shared by a group of observers – but consensus reality can only exist when the observer paradigms/lenses are kept the same.
The consensus reality appears unchanging because it is a solidified lens installed in all observers (by education).
So all observers put on that consensus reality lens, and therefore mutually validate each other and reinforce the truth of the consensus reality.
That makes the consensus reality appear persistent and true, but in truth it is only one of the lenses of looking at reality.
So the only place to really find truth is in your inner experience of which consensus reality is a subset.
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Entities in consciousness field

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The non-dual awareness light shines light through the spectrum of high to low vibration.

Light -> High (belief)———(mental)————(etheric)——— Low vibration (physical)

Now there are various entities inhabiting various parts of this spectrum. These entities are like algorithms or programs that modify the light of consciousness in specific ways.

They take input (divine light of ‘What is’) –> modify it –> give an output. These entities are like automaton programs that create more or less predictable output.

The divine light of ‘What is’ at the source shines with the highest vibration with 0 repetition and infinite freshness and change. Whereas these automaton entities reduce the divine light touching them to very predictable forms. These automaton entities can have different levels of subtlety and complexity.

The entire ‘self’ or ‘ego’ itself is an automaton program but a very subtle and highly complex one (it contains the artificial intelligence program or algorithms (algos) of algos of algos of algos.) At each subsequent level, the reductionism is greater, for example at the level of the etheric, say conditions – A,B,C,D,AA,DD,C,FF and 30 more say cause the emotion ANGER. So all the complex input ultimately passes through this entity and it creates one emotion flavor called ‘Anger’.

So in a way, all entities from gross to subtle, the subtlest being the ego/self, are reductions of the divine light’s subtlety and complexity.

Like we could draw a map of grand canyon and then assume that map to BE ‘Grand canyon’. We could create a mental concept of an experience and assume that concept to BE THE EXPERIENCE itself which it is not by a long shot.This is just to give a rough example of what reductionism is. That is why the mind cannot hold a concept of God/Ultimate/Infinite because it is TOO COMPLEX for the mind. The mind can only hold on to a concept of the divine, metaphors, analogies – but all of those are lower frequency and reduce the REAL complexity of the truth/divine. The expression in the form of metaphors nevertheless pours out of people who can feel/sense/intuit the divine, to make it understandable to others without that experience. However the metaphors cannot communicate the EXPERIENCE that causes one to MAKE SUCH METAPHORS.

The DIRECT EXPERIENCE once had however, reveals the truth behind all the metaphors that were used to describe.