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Reality cannot be described

Reality is indescribable.
Description is only a fractional component of reality. Reality is not a child of description.
Reality is not limited by description either.
Reality can go on even if we completely stop all language and descriptions.
Description or storying is something we do to make the infinite manageable, organized, coherent in some way.

Is reality really made up of atoms?

Is reality really made up of vibrations?

Is reality really made up of energy?

Is reality really made up of various souls inhabiting bodies in a material dimension?

Is reality really made up of consciousness?

We take one small concept, such as atom, energy, vibration, materials, consciousness and apply it to everything around us.

The more intelligent and expressive someone is, the more convincingly they can put across any sort of meta-model, meta-paradigm, meta-concept, meta-story of what reality is.

We can filter all of reality through that one concept or group of concepts and therefore everything appears to satisfy that.

Each meta-concept is like looking through a colored glass. When you look through such a concept glass, all of reality takes the color of the glass. You see what you believe.

Some stories are so convincing, that they can cause instant conversion of belief glasses to the story.
The act of creation is from the play of belief. Belief is the potential energy for the creation of desire itself. Then desire is the potential energy for the creation of thoughts. Thought is the potential energy for creation in the material plane.

So: Belief –> Desire –> Thought –> Action

Somebody believes in the existence of ghosts. They see ghosts everywhere.
Somebody believes in the existence of god. They see god everywhere or whatever their vision of God is.
If you believe you are worthy, your confidence convinces everyone else that you are worthy.
If you believe you are attractive, eventually people will start to see you with your own eyes (belief).
At a further level, there are meta-meta-concepts that are embedded into your very eyes, so much so, you literally think you are that.Ultimate freedom is from the ultimate cleansing of this seeing. See from nothing, do not see from any presumption, supposition, belief, ideology, concept.

One awesome proverb comes to my mind:
Reality is THAT which reveals itself TO our method of questioning.
Our method of questioning is the lens.

Change the method of questioning, change the premise, change the belief, the reality will entirely shift.

That is why, it is always the quality of the question that matters much more than the answer.

People do not get enlightenment, because they are looking at the wrong places. Its like a man who has lost his keys on a dark alley but is searching for it in another location just because there are street lights there. Well the darkness has the answer. What you know, you already know. You cannot get to the unknown from the known.

Knowledge and belief is reductionist, it reduces to infinite to a manageable finite. But the problem happens when we lose touch with the fact that this knowledge/belief is an accumulation and not intrinsic of our nature. Certain beliefs(ways of seeing) gets embedded into our very eyes (even beyond wearing glasses) and we start to believe we are %this person%.

The act of description and believing in description is reductionist. By explaining something and believing it, you are solidifying the filter of your reality and LOSING AWARENESS of the filter itself.
You are moving further from the infinite as you believe and internalize more and more descriptions.
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The prison of ‘The need to make sense’

Is the need to make sense the major vice like inhibition I have?
Maybe nothing makes sense in reality
What is ‘making sense’ anyway, besides a constructed illusion?
A complex illusion but nevertheless unrealWhat if everything is basically non-sense?
Am I really sane? OR Is being sane just a belief structure/mythology I hold onto?
What if the belief that I need to act sane is the very trap?
What if my need to make sense is the very prison?

Sanity is a restricted form of insanity
Insanity is where freedom lies
Sanity is like the paved path in the forest

Insanity is the whole of the forest which includes the paved path

I need to let go of the need to make sense
If all of what is going on is basically non-sense, then it is my complex illusion (holding on) that I think ‘my sense’ is not the same non-sense that is there all over realityI’m withdrawing my emotional investment from everything
Since nothing makes sense to me anymore
Everything appears to be empty, all paths appear to be empty

This perception of emptiness paralyzes me

But what if emptiness of everything is the point of existence?

If something were real, then how can reality be infinite?
Would that so called ‘real thing’, limit reality in someway?

Aren’t my actions, thoughts, words, writings, all of it, just a random celebration
As spontaneous, meaningless and senseless as a bird chirping?
How is my stuff any different from something totally meaningless and absurd?

Its all the same space right?

Does existence really care if something makes sense?
In the way I believe it should make sense?

Isn’t reality far vaster than my interpretation of it?

I always cared about the content
I always cared about speaking the truth
But what is this truth I care about, besides a small part of reality I hold on to as a filter?
What difference does it make whether I dance with meaningless joy OR sit seriously and solve the riddles of existence?
Aren’t both of the actions just games?
Isn’t everything ultimately beyond meaning and meaninglessness?
Why cling to sensibility, meaningfulness?
Each person is like a crow, croaking nonsense
And I am also a crow, croaking my nonsense
This is a nonsensical croaking celebration
No matter how serious a crow may sound, no matter how advanced his language might be
No matter how serious his face may appear
It is still all merry croaking nonsenseDo not be misled into thinking, its anything else
Apart from merry absurd nonsense
There are infinite kinds and types of non-sense, that’s all
But its all nonsense
The nonsensical ecstasy of existence.
Doesn’t this nonsense pique your curiosity?

Isn’t it hilarious?

Identification –> Investment –> Rewards/Satisfaction –> Reinvestment –> More rewards –> …Hooked cycle….
People are invested in all kinds of non-sense this way
But I’m paralyzed because I want to invest in something that makes sense.
So I’m holding back on all my emotions like the deepest in-breath you can take
But I cannot release it on anything, since everything is nonsense
This is creating a lot of super stress in me
But what if ‘what I think is sense’ is also the same nonsense?
Then would there be any reason to hold back anything?
Then why would I hold this gigantic in-breath and suffer?

Learning about enlightenment is like the most gigantic inbreath of knowledge you can take
At the peak of this breath (collection/accumulation/insight/knowledge)

Is the ultimate release
Is the hidden truth of the nonsense of everything

Of the absurdity of everything

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Voluntary and Involuntary are happenings, concepts of no-self, grand-self

Sometimes I feel, what comes to us as drug experiences, crazy experiences with people, experiences through meditation etc. are all the same. In other words, at a certain level voluntary and involuntary (external world is also involuntary) doings, are happenings in the same space (modulations of the same space). There is no difference between what comes to you and what you bring to you using your will/energy/power/control. Both are appearances and we are both those appearances: voluntary and involuntary.

Lets talk about the self and how to identify a self. The self is what stands out from the background. If you have no self, then you would literally be in the background and not noticeable at all in any way, i.e. absolutely not stand out. On the opposite end, if you have a very high self, you would conspicuously stand out from the background either with your looks, ideas, thoughts, opinions, beliefs, imagination etc.

The transcendent view is beyond the appearance of self or no-self. The idea is not to have a large self or a no-self. The idea is to fully FREE FALL into the EXPRESSION of ‘WHAT EXISTS/WHAT IS’. This free fall might be a movement of desire to have a stronger or more powerful self, or it might be a movement towards self abnegation i.e. a return to unknowing. Either ways, none of them is more holy that the other.

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Going beyond the metaphor of ‘You projecting the world like a movie’

In the initial stages of understanding, its extremely helpful to see all of experience like a movie your are projecting. Like we project emotions, mental subtle feelings, memories and stories to objects and this causes most of the richness of our lives.

What I am trying to describe here is that, it is possible to move even beyond this metaphor. It is not you who is projecting from your body this life movie. In fact, even if we go further, it is also not right to say we are projecting this world in the experience dimension from nothingness.

That is, it is possible to go beyond both these analogies:

In the physical/material dimension:

Your body ——–> <Projects>————> Experience Movie (like a prism projects the white light as the color spectrum, color spectrum == Experience)

Proof: The body is a vehicle that transforms the prism of awareness light into the specific experiences that you are living now. You are therefore experiencing awareness from this prism point of view. There is both the automatic functioning of the body and the quality of volition that allows you to control experience.

In the experience dimension:

Nothingness ——-> <Projects>———-> Experience Movie

Proof: When I withdraw projections from the external world to a thought in meditation, the external world falls away for that period. I could extrapolate and infer that if I withdraw all projections from all subtle and gross objects, I would reach nothingness. As a corollary I could conclude that experience therefore projects itself from the ground of nothingness.

So the way beyond is that, consciousness is not projected from <A> to <B>. That is a particular kind of imagination, a particular meta-paradigmatic-conceptual thought.

Next Leap:

Consciousness is what experiential space is doing. Which means the notion of a point of origin, concentration and a projection from that point is removed. It is everywhere. Its as if we are inhabiting a 3-D space filled with consciousness pixels and we ARE those pixels. What the pixels are doing is what ‘WE ARE DOING’.

It is not that light of consciousness is shining through me. Consciousness is not in the body at all. It is outside and everywhere. Like everything is not a light projected from you to it. It is what space is doing itself, every molecule of space experience is choosing to be as it is.

So that is about ‘Experience Space’. In terms of experience time, WE are the experience of time, We are not in time, WE ARE TIME ITSELF. TIME IS US.We are both all the pixels of EXPERIENCE TIME AND EXPERIENCE SPACE.EVERYTHING IS EXPERIENCE, and WE ARE EXPERIENCE.

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Exclusion of stories from insight

I hide behind the mask of impersonality like the ‘V for Vendetta’ movie. Because I care about the message, the idea, not about myself or my story, but just the direct condensed insight, like a scientist or physicist presents his equation and leaves the story of how he arrived at it to your imagination. The story would be interesting for sure, but the main point is the condensed message itself which is why I exclude all stories.

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Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience

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The ideal +ve experience is where the mind is like an infinitely large diamond that is clear, does not hold anything but yet, reflects/refracts the infinite contents around it brilliantly.

Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience qualities:
Interpretation = Refraction
Awareness = Reflection
Time = Movement
Belief = Light
The game of reflection, refraction, movement and light is perceived as meaning by the witness.

When it comes to imagination, the best imagination of reality is like a diamond, the least imagination of reality is like a mirror which simply reflects ‘what is’.
When it comes to awareness, the best awareness is ‘Infinite’, while the least imagination is ‘Unitary object’.

I could also call this: Mind and Contents.
Mind like a diamond with infinite contents ——————–Mind like a mirror with single content
Infinite awareness+Diamond like imagination+Optimal movement/change.

I could also call it: Interpretation and Raw Materials(Objects).
Interpretation like a diamond + Infinite Objects ————————————— Interpretation like a mirror + Single Object.

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Mirroring of qualities in interactions, equanimity as a transcendent relationship

Qualities <x> tend to be simply mirrored among people in interactions:

Algorithm:
We feel <x>, when witnessing <x>
OR
We feel <x> towards <x>
OR
We react with <x>, towards observed behavior <x>

Negatives:
Anger towards Anger
Hatred towards Hatred
Judgment towards Judgment
Intolerance towards Intolerance
Destruction towards Destruction
Violence towards Violence
Irritation towards Irritation
Anxiety towards Anxiety
Sadness towards Sadness
Frustration towards Frustration
Depression towards Depression
Fear towards Fear
Rejection towards Rejection

panic towards panic
unrest towards unrest
distress towards distress
struggle towards struggle
resistance towards resistance
fighting towards fighting
silence towards silence
indifference towards indifference
neglect towards neglect

Positives:
Love towards Love
Attraction towards Attraction
Admiration towards Admiration
Excitement towards Excitement
Calmness towards Calmness
Happiness towards happiness
Fascination towards Fascination
Jovialness towards Jovialness
Energeticness towards Energeticness
Acceptance towards Acceptance

Equanimity is about transcending this action/reaction paradigm and just a clear seeing of ‘What is’.
Its like moving in the ‘Z’ axis and seeing the whole ‘x,y’ paradigm and then projecting ‘Acceptance’ as a mega-relationship to the entire ‘action/reaction’ paradigm/plane and all its contents.

Equanimity is a transcendent relationship to the action/reaction plane.

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Lament about existential condition

How have people managed to collapse their infinite imagination potential
Into this severely constrained and limited space/time framework
Into this culture/society/belief/identity/commitment paradigm

I mean seriously, how can you constrain yourself like this?

It seems like such an insult, disgrace
Like i’ve been greatly wronged, punished
Like a severe prison I’ve been put into
Why would I ever decide to enter this realm of severe limitation
With a body which I have to constantly worry about and protect?

I live in constant fear
Of losing what little I have
Which everything around me keeps constantly threatening
And even to keep the little freedom I have
I have to work everyday for other people’s wills
And sell my soul away

What kind of a punishment is this?
This is just horrid, appalling, despicable.
What is the purpose of this realm of severe limitation?
It is such an insult to my infinite nature, to define myself as a narrow concept.
I mean how can I sell my soul like this, so cheap?

Is this the price for my attachments?
Such a great price?
Just to live in this first class prison?
Just to live in fear of loss all the time?

How can a sane man live happily?
In this condition?
How can he be so blind?
So as to not see how badly he has been limited?
Can ignorance of imagination really be that great?

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Poetic Insight – Nov 20

Trust the flow,
Trust the movement
Its all a dream

You dream you are weak
you dream you are powerful
You dream you are happy
You dream you are sad
You dream things are terrible
You dream things are beautiful

The objects contain no qualities
Apart from the ones you project
The external world is a humble prop
Your humble servant, An inviting stage
A canvas for your dreams
Your dreams of adventure
Dreams of understanding
Dreams of deprivation
Dreams of delight
Dreams of fantasy
Dreams of greatness
Dreams of suffering
Dreams of sorrow
Dreams of limitation

What a strange world this is
what a strange existence this is
how absurd is everything
Why do I exist as me
In this place, time and situation

Witness your power as the dreamer
See that light and shadow is your sweetest game
See the magic in this absurdity
Realize there has never been anything apart
The ultimate reality is you
That mystery is you
The unborn is you
The magic is you

Your intellect and knowledge
Are accumulations of a man walking backwards
He walks backwards into the unknown
But sees and holds on to his passing creations
Believing its him and acting from there
Not realizing he is not his creation
He limits himself in fear of loss
But in reality
He is that very unknown he steps into
At every moment

What you create from accumulation
From prior knowledge and experience
Is already dead and stale
The truth is ever-new, ever-refeshing

Create from the unmanifest
Create from the spontaneous
Create from the unknown
Create from the unexpected
That is where the true ecstasy lies

Reclaim your true identity
Return to the unmanifest
Your unborn nature
The infinite potential

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The Ultimate Understanding

Today, it occurred to me, ‘enlightenment’ just sounded like a funny sounding word to me. The ultimate understanding is that there is that there is nothing TO understand. Understanding itself is an appearance in the pool of ever changing appearances in consciousness.

An analogy would be similar to thinking a cartoon character in the movie screen is real, but the truth is not only is the character not real, but also, all the content displayed on the screen is made up of the pixels of the screen. The screen pixels refer to the pixels of experience/consciousness/awareness/perception.

STEPS:
– This understanding develops by first viewing everything as consciousness/awareness/appearances/phenomena. ‘Absolutely Nothing’ can be excluded. This deepening takes inquiry, interest and practice.
– Reduce everything to this one substance and then start your observation from that point of view.
– Next observe the impermanence and change of all phenomena.

– When change is observed carefully, non-essence of anything is revealed.
Rule: If an object makes a 100% change in its nature from state A to state B, this implies the true nature of this object is unknown/mystery. 100% change = implies unknown/mystery nature. So if you observe 100% change in your awareness, the non-essence of all content is revealed.