Parable of the Girl Next Door

Imagine there is a girl-next door.
You initially meet her briefly, say hi, speak a few words.
She makes you feel excited, mesmerized and really spikes your curiosity.
Now, say you have a lot of other girlfriends – 100’s of them.
And say you meet different ones each day.
Sometimes you meet them in groups too.
Each of your other girlfriends have specific qualities to them that you admire.
The next day, you start to look forward to meeting the girl next door
You tap on her door, and wait for her.
Again you 2 chat up for a while, and you come back once again feeling captivated and fascinated.
Now, this goes on for a while, everyday you chat with her for a while and get back to your life.
As you get to know more about her, she only seems to get more mysterious and interesting.
Generally, when you get to know someone fully, you tend to lose interest.
But this girl is captivating you more and more each time.
You get drawn to her, entranced, and more and more excited to spend more time with her.
You steadily increase the time you spend with her.
You spend hours at her house each day and it is never boring.
Eventually, you start to drop all your other engagements too with all your other girlfriends more and more.
This girl next door has all the qualities of your other girl friends and much much more.
She is a rich mystery, a plenitude, and always escapes your understanding.
After a while, you start to drop EVERYTHING, and spend all your waking time with her.
You even leave your own house, you leave all of your other girlfriends, everything.
All you want to do is spend time with her and invest everything you have got in her – your heart, mind, soul, body.
She is everything that you can possibly conceive of, or imagine, and yet much much more.
Everytime you try to understand her, it is like gold slipping through your fingers, you just cannot grasp it.
There is nothing you want to do, besides being with her totally all the time.
You want to merge with her, you want to become her, you want to become all that she is.
She is mesmerizing beyond your wildest dreams, and you are ready to lay down everything for her.
You spend 24×7 of your time with her now.
She is your all-encompassing absorption and trance.
Now you ask her to merge you into her.
She swallows you in her embrace.
You feel the increasing pain of your dissolution, as you are being absorbed into her body.
You feel you are losing yourself, your mind space is filled with the smoke of grief.
You are blinded, you cannot see anything.
But yet, you hold on even more, and you want her to absorb you into her.
You know she is a million times greater/grander/vaster/richer than anything you could ever be.
Your only desire is to union with her.
She pulls you in even tighter, and you give in more and more.
And finally you are absorbed into her and now you are ‘her’.
You live as her, experience as she does, and see as she does.

The spiritual path is very similar.
Here, you are the separate self/ego.
The girl-next door is the transcendent spirit object and your source.
The other girl-friends you have are all your other worldly desires/passions/interests/ambitions/hobbies.
The love affair that you have with the girl next door is the spiritual quest.
When you ask her to embrace you and absorb you into her – it is the Dark Night of the Soul.
When you finally fully merge into her, and start seeing from her eyes – you are the spirit itself.

Center of Consciousness and Force

HEAVEN (circle)
{——-7C——–Infinity
[6C – consciousness center] – center of shiva/consciousness/perception
——–5C——–Wisdom}
[4C – heart center] – center of shakti/force/love/desire
{——-3C——–Mind
——–2C——–Emotion
——–1C——–Physical}
EARTH (square)

Note: C = Chakra

Content vs Context

This is a really deep topic.
If Content is King, then Context is God.
Content is Ego while Context is Spirit.

When the spirit part of you is transforming or sick, it is going to create a terrible/hellish/despairish context.
When the context is that way, nothing in the world – good relationships, love from others, lots of freedom and money – all mean absolutely nothing.
Similarly when context is wonderful – you could be a beggar on the road and feel mystical wonder and beautiful.
Context/spirit is alive – it keeps changing/shifting/moving just like all alive beings do.
Also, context is timeless or beyond time.
Time operates within context, or time is part of context itself.
So you may feel ‘This NOW experience’ will last forever, rightfully so, since that is how it is perceived.
However, this experience/moment will surely pass just like any other context and warp your whole life timeline view(past-present-future) too with it.

Gross/Subtle Forms/Forces

Technically one never destroys life, one only destroys forms and form potentials.
Similarly, one never creates life, one only nurtures forms and form potentials.
What cannot be destroyed or created are the unborn/unformed potentials themselves. Life is this unborn potentiality itself.
What I truly am in my purest/distilled/untangled form is this “infinite unborn potential” manifesting in/as/across the entire field as a shimmering of possibilities.

But in the case of forms, it is very easy to destroy a form.
If 2 digital cameras say meet each other (haha), they might click pictures of each other in their different modes and quality settings.
Whereas, say a hammer were to meet a digital camera, in its nature, it would hit/smash and the form of the digital camera would instantly lose its structure/function/integrity.
The hammer however can continue to stay in its nature happily and still retain its function.
The subtler camera structure has however lost its form integrity and functionality.

So this gives me the impression that, subtler forms are inherently more beautiful and rich but also much more fragile.
The subtler the form, the more fragile/vulnerable it is.
Fear is the protective mechanism, when a subtler form is in the presence of a lot of gross forces, because as in the example I demonstrated, the grosser forces would destroy this rich subtle form.

But what about forces? The tables turn here.
The subtle forces are much more powerful than gross forces.
For instance, the force of a rock can do nothing to the air, but the force of air can wear the rock away and still stay unaffected.
Like how the asteroids are vaporized by the time they reach the surface of the earth due to their friction with air.

Good/evil and delusion, are connected to the force and not the forms.
The forms are maintained or adopted by the forces, to carry out their function.
The force uses forms.
When the force attaches and identifies itself with a specific form, it identifies with the form instead of itself and gets limited to maintaining/protecting/improving the form – creating what we call ego.
Enlightenment is to shift identification from the form to the force which frees up the force.
And probably, there is an identification possible that even transcends force.

Freedom for the force is – non-attachment and non-identification with forms.
And freedom from both the form and force is to stay/identify with and as awareness.

Everything is self-evident

Everything is self-evidently perfect
The one with eyes will see
The one without eyes will not see
The one with blurry eyes will see blurry
The one with clear eyes will see clear
The one with tunnel vision will see tunneled
The one with wide vision will see wide
The one with desire will seek
The one without desire will not seek
The one with guilt will punish/deprive oneself
The one with pride will pleasure/provide oneself
The one who feels worthy will celebrate
The one who feels unworthy will feel sad
The one with hope will strive
The one who loses hope will drop his efforts
…and so on

Another algorithm for processing experiences

Another great strategy for dealing with all difficulties/experiences/pains is:
“See through it OR See it through” (inspired from Scott Mandelker)

Seeing through it is to recognize the emptiness of it.
Seeing it through is to sit with the raw experience compassionately without fueling it or interfering with it.

Seeing through it requires Fearlessness.
Seeing it through requires Compassion.

External world as a mirror of vibration state

vibrations

The entire outside world is a mirror of the vibration in you.
The “dark night of the soul” is about the falling of the vibration in you, which warps all of your world – independent of your situation.
So similarly, when vibration rises, it will again warp the whole world magically around you.
The high or low vibration experiences and worlds are not intrinsic.
But rather, it is in the large wave of duality,
That gives one wisdom beyond the world illusion.
The revelation is that, the quality of the whole world illusion/dream depends on the inner vibration state.
The world simply mirrors the intra-psyche vibration and its organic flows.
Various emotions/feelings get projected around all the objects/people/situations of this world.
That is your real wealth, your vibration.
And that is not in your hands, that comes from beyond.
There are states and stations.
The state is what is in your hands, i.e. the vibratory state potentials you have access to from your current station.
Whereas, the station you are in, is moved from the beyond.
Also it is an inevitable law that,
To the degree one falls lower, one rises higher to the same proportion.
This lower and higher is part of the same wave,
And there can never be a wave with only a trough and no crest.
From the 5th dimension looking down at the 4th, this wave can be seen at once, as one object (union of opposites).
From the 4th dimension looking down at the 3rd, this wave plays out in time, taking you into a trough and then a crest.

Everything is dancing the wonder of god

Everything is dancing the wonder of god, but none can know god, except through their own highest vision, and dying more and more into it, to get higher and higher.
All metaphors and inspirational works of art, poetry, metaphysics, science etc. – none of them are god – rather all these works of creation are closer and closer to god, pointing towards the unfathomable center(infinite point).
Beings closer to god have more creation power (if we define god as the ultimate power of creation).
The greatest among us beckon us(not out of fear/control but pure inspiration), so that we may discover and live in our own higher potential.

Ego as an assertion(activity) to cover its dual

egoprojection

The implied background always wins over the projected foreground.
The whole game is that the ego attempts to strongly project more and more of the opposite, in order to hide the background.
Every assertion is a force that is trying to cover up its background.

Its like there is a self-definition downloaded, and there is this feeling of “ohh shit, I hate that, that is horrible” and therefore the whole self agitates and goes into turmoil/resistance/suffering and pushes out/projects the opposite strongly to the degree to which the turmoil was present.
Greater the degree of non-acceptance/resistance/turmoil/agitation/suffering, greater the degree of the opposite force “asserted” IN ORDER to cover up the suffering within.
So the whole purpose of the ego shell, which is a outward projected doing, is to cover up, and is a protection/shell against the suffering underneath.
More there is to hide, stronger the projective force of ego, and the louder it is.
So the ego is the false self put out, IN ORDER TO, cover up the unacceptable.

For example, why does a person push to be more popular?
The pushing is the foreground which is the assertion.
The background is the belief that “he is not-popular” and also that “he ought to be popular”
So this background agitates as a result and tries to project a strong persona forward that stays and pushes to be more and more popular.
However, since the person never stops, the background is always winning, and all the person succeeds in doing is in masking this deeper belief about himself.
When he runs out of energy and if he is unable to assert his popularity, he falls into its “Dual state” of being unpopular and suffering as a result of that(non-acceptance) which was his original condition to start with.
So the way out, is to drop the assertion first, and live through the base definitions you have about yourself and accept it.
Interestingly when the base definition is totally accepted, then even that vanishes from being along with the need to be popular which becomes redundant.
His strong outer ego shell was projected from its inner core, precisely to avoid the inner core experience which was some unbearable reality (the definition and its non-acceptance) that was programmed into him at a formative age.

Love and Knowledge

All real knowledge is from love. To love is to BE.
Consciousness can be experienced from any point of view, and full knowledge can be gained about anything in existence, by unioning with it and BEING IT.
Some things/people are easy to BE. Some others are much more difficult.
But full knowledge can only be gained when we BE something totally – greater the extent to which you can immerse your energy in something, greater will be the knowledge you can gain about that thing.
Knowledge is therefore your capacity to BE.
Capacity to BE = Love = Knowledge = Empathy
Empathy is the expression of our shared being.

Spectrum:
Dharana—————– Dhyana—————– Samadhi (union)
In order to union with something totally, you first have to be entirely formless and empty, only then can you completely union with form.
Else your capacity to BE will be reduced accordingly, and thereby your capacity to love and know will be lower too.
Love is the ability to BE something, putting your substance into something, infusing yourself with it, unioning with it.
To the degree to which this can be done, your love is greater, and accordingly your knowing will be greater too.