Journey to the Abstract

When one is very hazy, one tends to seek clear people outside.
When one is powerless, one tends to seek powerful people.
When one is unsure, one tends to seek people with surety.
In a sense, I think the rule is:
“We try to externally procure that attachment which we have internally lost”

So if an object like say “Pride” for you is lost from your awareness, you will seek “Pride” in outside people and try to KEEP THEM in your awareness and therefore be drawn to them and hang around them.
But when you have internal pride(like a storage), you do not have this need to externalize and maintain. You are much freer in a sense.
So in essence, there is attachment to pride say, then the goal will be to keep it in your AWARENESS. If you can internally naturally get it, that’s awesome, you’ll feel free and great. Else, if you lose your internal source, you will cling to an external object representing pride (because that keeps that in your awareness basically)

So its very interesting, in a sense – the internal, external distinction does not even matter. The issue is always [what is my attachment? Is the object secure and stable? How much control do I have over maintaining the object?]
If external then control is much harder and you are enslaved in a sense
If internal and if present effortlessly then you can ignore that need and have freedom (just like your body is transparent to you when in perfect health).

So a deduction here would be:
with internal loss -> will come external clinging and enslavement
as a stage of development.
So every internal loss of “attachment objects” will lead to clinging of “external objects”(representing the same quality that one is attached to).

Do not witness, even that is effort.
Do not perceive, even that is effort.
Do not observe, even that is effort.
Do not see (verb) anything, even that is effort.

Do not do exercise/exert the slightest energetic control over whatever you are feeling.
Do not try to think anything, that would be effort.
Do not try to feel anything, that would be effort.
Do not imagine anything, that is also effort.
Do not even try to BE anything, that would also be effort.

Now, drop even the effort to drop effort.
(infinite)…..Drop [Drop[Drop[Drop[Drop……….(infinite)]]]]…..(infinite)
(infinite)….[Then Drop the whole equation above too]….]]]]…(infinite)
Its a complete complete complete…(infinite) surrender/relaxation into ‘IS’
An ABSOLUTE UNION
Go into the deepesttttttttttt….(infinite) sleep

US is like a macbook and mac’s philosophy.
India is like win10 and the win10’s philosophy.

All death is just a matter of perspective
Because every death also implies creation of something new on its other side
So we could say, there is only transformation
There is no exclusive creation or destruction
Everything is a lila (play of energy)

What you observe (as a verb, as a doing), you cannot BE
So in a sense your observation withdraws life force from the object you are observing
The object dies in your witnessing
They say, the male path(Mindfulness, Insight) is of – reaching everything through nothing(the grand nothing).
And the female path(Tantra, Love) is the reverse – embracing everything until they reach nothing.
And ofcourse, the 2 path states alternate too, they are not separate
Like one would swing like a pendulum from one side to the other.

Loss of soul means suddenly ‘everything’ is what you don’t want
What u want and investments becomes smaller and smaller and vanish
Then all you have is death(verb) or experiencing of loss willingly
The only will is then to lose
Nothing is wanted anymore apart from loss/death
Only the will to transform(die/change) remains
It is the movement back to NOTHING from everything

When deeper desires go asleep, sexual desire and survival then rule the roost. They appear as very fleeting and superficial desires.
The deep desires are lost.
All you know is “THIS, I DONT WANT”
What you want you don’t know
As you desperately try to find what you want, each image/thing disappoints and is unsatisfactory
The insight that ALL IS UNSATISFACTORY comes to the fore
Then progressive realizations occur which unions the opposites (life and death)

Death is life and life is death
Loss is gain and gain is loss
Less is more and more is less
Everything is nothing and nothing is everything
Light is dark and dark is light
To know is to not know, to not know is to know
To create is to destroy, to destroy is to create
To love is to hate, to hate is to love
To affirm is go deny, to deny is to affirm
Nothing’ feels everything, and everything is nothing’s form
Form is emptiness, emptiness is form
We can have Effortless doing and effortful non-doing
To give another is to receive their giving
To take from another is to give them your receiving

In math terms, To x is to x’, and To x’ is to x
(where x = quality, x’= complement)

Immense loss is possible when it comes to projections.
And all object essences are projected essences.
So it is possible to LOSE everything literally.
The whole world essence is our projection.
So real loss, is not loss of a material item, or a person, or a situation.
Real loss is the loss of projection potentials.
That is REAL REAL loss.

To fully create requires you to fully destroy.
The more you destroy, the more potential there is to create.
So every destruction creates potential for creation.
Every creation creates potential for destruction.
So the more creative a person is, the more creation and destruction he would witness.

All Effort is inauthentic
All images are unsatisfactory.
Except the images cathected to life.
Life moves mysteriously between various images and enlivens them.
What we long for is life, not images.
Life projects itself onto images and uses them as props,
Giving the illusion of the images containing the essence
So to live authentically is to BE WHERE LIFE IS
Life will continue to move its projections in mysterious ways among various images(as props)
But re-cathecting to life essence is like standing at the helm of the ship instead of controlling it indirectly with effort from afar.

Effort is the litmus test fr how far you are from life.
Life is being.
Effort is doing.
The being effortlessly does the doing too.
So non-doing is the highest philosophy.

Joy is the other litmus test
Are you feeling joy in what your are doing?
If no, then do the thing/only act on your highest joy.

Acting on effort means you are disconnected from your source of life
It means you are disconnected from your source of power, well-being and joy.
The more effort you put in day to day, the more disconnected and far away you are from life/power/well-being/joy.