Journey to the Abstract

All death is just a matter of perspective
Because every death also implies creation of something new on its other side
So we could say, there is only transformation
There is no exclusive creation or destruction
Everything is a lila (play of energy)

What you observe (as a verb, as a doing), you cannot BE
So in a sense your observation withdraws life force from the object you are observing
The object dies in your witnessing
They say, the male path(Mindfulness, Insight) is of – reaching everything through nothing(the grand nothing).
And the female path(Tantra, Love) is the reverse – embracing everything until they reach nothing.
And ofcourse, the 2 path states alternate too, they are not separate
Like one would swing like a pendulum from one side to the other.

Loss of soul means suddenly ‘everything’ is what you don’t want
What u want and investments becomes smaller and smaller and vanish
Then all you have is death(verb) or experiencing of loss willingly
The only will is then to lose
Nothing is wanted anymore apart from loss/death
Only the will to transform(die/change) remains
It is the movement back to NOTHING from everything

When deeper desires go asleep, sexual desire and survival then rule the roost. They appear as very fleeting and superficial desires.
The deep desires are lost.
All you know is “THIS, I DONT WANT”
What you want you don’t know
As you desperately try to find what you want, each image/thing disappoints and is unsatisfactory
The insight that ALL IS UNSATISFACTORY comes to the fore
Then progressive realizations occur which unions the opposites (life and death)

Death is life and life is death
Loss is gain and gain is loss
Less is more and more is less
Everything is nothing and nothing is everything
Light is dark and dark is light
To know is to not know, to not know is to know
To create is to destroy, to destroy is to create
To love is to hate, to hate is to love
To affirm is go deny, to deny is to affirm
Nothing’ feels everything, and everything is nothing’s form
Form is emptiness, emptiness is form
We can have Effortless doing and effortful non-doing
To give another is to receive their giving
To take from another is to give them your receiving

In math terms, To x is to x’, and To x’ is to x
(where x = quality, x’= complement)

Immense loss is possible when it comes to projections.
And all object essences are projected essences.
So it is possible to LOSE everything literally.
The whole world essence is our projection.
So real loss, is not loss of a material item, or a person, or a situation.
Real loss is the loss of projection potentials.
That is REAL REAL loss.

To fully create requires you to fully destroy.
The more you destroy, the more potential there is to create.
So every destruction creates potential for creation.
Every creation creates potential for destruction.
So the more creative a person is, the more creation and destruction he would witness.

All Effort is inauthentic
All images are unsatisfactory.
Except the images cathected to life.
Life moves mysteriously between various images and enlivens them.
What we long for is life, not images.
Life projects itself onto images and uses them as props,
Giving the illusion of the images containing the essence
So to live authentically is to BE WHERE LIFE IS
Life will continue to move its projections in mysterious ways among various images(as props)
But re-cathecting to life essence is like standing at the helm of the ship instead of controlling it indirectly with effort from afar.

Effort is the litmus test fr how far you are from life.
Life is being.
Effort is doing.
The being effortlessly does the doing too.
So non-doing is the highest philosophy.

Joy is the other litmus test
Are you feeling joy in what your are doing?
If no, then do the thing/only act on your highest joy.

Acting on effort means you are disconnected from your source of life
It means you are disconnected from your source of power, well-being and joy.
The more effort you put in day to day, the more disconnected and far away you are from life/power/well-being/joy.

– Focused observation energy (without the physical representation overlayed on the pure energetic experience) + Deep Breathing directed to it = charges the grosser energy pattern that is being focused at + sets it into flow.
– Ultimately there is only energy and this energy gets entangled into grosser forms in our experience.
– The grosser forms of entangled balls of energy structures, basically represent a lack of energy. (Just like a solid lacks energy compared to a gas)
– The subtler form is the higher energetic form that permeates and penetrates the grosser form and is capable of freeing the grosser form. The subtler form here is observation energy+breath, and the grosser form is the energy pattern you are working with.
– Freeing these balls of grosser energy patterns, is possible, by supplying them with a subtler energy of observation (charging them) + using breath energy (to get them flowing/move)
– Entangled balls of grosser energy and structures – convert the super subtle source energy of light into grosser outputs – like heavier emotions, coarse sensations.
– Supplying the higher energy of observation to them, is like heating those grosser energy balls in fire.
– What happens when you heat a solid? Essentially the molecules of a solid have lower energy and therefore has coalesced into a solid. It represents a lack of freedom and binded nature. Now if I heat it with fire, I am supplying each of the molecules with additional energy, this causes the solid to free its molecules, vaporize into a gas, and in this manner it starts getting transmuted to a subtler form.
– The same principle holds for freeing your gross energy patterns/entangled balls of energy fibers.

A true choice is unconditional by definition.
Otherwise it is a choice that is subject to the condition matrix/labyrinth.
If a choice is made from the whole, then it has the power of the whole.
If the choice is made from a part, it only has the power of that part.
So the power of your choice, is based on its depth.
The deeper and subtler the origin of the choice, the more powerful it is.

An atom bomb’s power is because is it subtle to the level of atoms.
Compare that to the power of a boulder, which is much more gross in its nature as an instrument.
Subtler the instrument, greater the power.

A true choice arises from the depths, beyond/subtler than ALL of the energetic movements of thought, emotion & the physical.
All true choice can only come from BEING.
All circumstances/situations represent only the surface level of reality.
All the deeper reality is within.

Only the whole can take true actions/decisions
Therefore no thought or emotion can take decisions
Because thoughts and emotions deciding are like parts deciding for the whole
Then its just one part fighting another part within the same whole.
The game goes on in the same whole with the same parts, with no true change.
Only the whole can move the whole.