When I say everything is meaningless, that is impossible, because total meaninglessness can only apply to ‘Nothing’, and it is not possible to perceive ‘Nothing’, because the ‘Subject’ of such a perception would again be a ‘Something’.
So the meaninglessness experience is basically the egoic structure’s inability to continue itself anymore because it is realizing its own darkness/delusions. So meaning is always there, any ‘Something’ is inherently meaningful and there is eternally a something (nothing can never exist, even if it did, that would be a moment of 0, or non-expeirence, so it would not count at all).
The meaninglessness is because of the ego getting paralyzed as it realizes that it can never satisfy itself, because it in itself is the unsolvable problem.