What frequency space do you occupy?

All of the infinite frequency potentials are contained in us.
All essence potentials exist in and as us.
When it comes to the manifest frequencies however, the only variation is in degree.

It is like the pictures on your computer screen.
There are a series of RGB LEDs.
Each of these RGB LEDs could emit a color within the following ranges:
Red – 0 to 255
Green – 0 to 255
Blue – 0 to 255
And the picture on the screen is the gestalt holistic perception of the ‘relationship’ of the various LED emissions.
The nature of our experience of life is very similar.
We perceive a relationship between the various frequencies components in our space as ‘experience’ (from subtle to gross).

Frequency = Vibration = Sound.
The manifest universe is the spoken word of Brahman.
So all of experience is our perception/grasp of the picture/music of sound frequencies.
Experience grasped in a blink or moment (the immediate slice, apperception) can be seen as “a picture of frequencies” = Direct apperception without memory.
While experience that is in time is like “the music/movie of frequencies” = Perception that contains memory and projection = Referred to as ‘The Mind’.
(because if there is no memory, then there is no mind)

Now coming back to the question, what is the frequency space you occupy?
To answer this, look at your experience music right now?
We can look at different aspects such as:
What is its intensity, subtlety, fineness or coarseness?
What is your experience, when you drop all efforts and do nothing?
Simply be aware in non-doing and scan the frequencies in your experience.
That gives you an idea about your current basal frequency space and its frequency forms, the context of your space right now.
There is: state and station of experience.
State is what is reached by your efforts.
Station on the other hand is the condition that exists when you are not doing anything.
Now, just like how the measurements from an instrument depend on the subtlety of that instrument itself (like a volt-meter cannot measure millivolts), your perception is conditioned by the subtlety of the instrument itself that you occupy.
So say, you sit down in non-doing, initially, you experience a blank, this is because your perception has not sensitized itself yet.
Like how when you enter a dark room from bright sunlight, suddenly everything is pitch black.
Once perception acclimatizes, you start to see clearly in the dark room.

Perception and memory

Perception needs memory —AND— Memory needs perception.
Memory conditions perception —AND— Perception conditions memory.
Memory conditioning perception = bondage —AND— Perception conditioning memory = liberation
Both these terms are wonderfully intertwined with each other.

Information vs. Processing

When [Information] is less than [Processing] = We go outside, we socialize, we seek experiences (sympathetic activation – seek and explore)

When [Information] is greater than [Processing] = We retreat, we isolate, we hermit ourselves [parasympathetic activation – rest and digest]

This dynamic can also be clearly seen in:
1 – how we search/acquire physical food
2 – and then consume/digest/assimilate it
Just like physical food is for our physical body, [impressions food] is for our psychic body.
We first explore/seek and go on adventures to acquire experiences, then once we have acquired enough, we go low key and possibly isolate ourselves to digest everything.
In our world systems, we are expected to work perpetually with little breaks.
So we often feel guilty for profoundly retreating for too long.
But it could be that is what you need.
Follow what your deepest being is telling you.

States of consciousness vs. movement(happening)


Today I met my cousin after a long time, and the conversation we had seamlessly flowed from topic to topic on auto-pilot.
I was barely conscious in the whole of the conversation that transpired, it just flowed spontaneously and I was dimly witnessing the happening with very little control or consciousness of it.
These kinds of dissociated blank states happen a lot to me, esp. when I am engaged in a conversation.
Suddenly I lose consciousness of the entire context, and I feel like my memory is wiping out and refreshing every second as I speak.
Like to keep writing on water and watching your writing disappear spontaneously as you write, but yet keep writing without any plan or consciousness of the goal or context.
This always puzzled me, this state of consciousness that is.
Later after the 3 hour conversation, I wrote down everything I chatted about and it seemed to make sense in retrospect.
I felt the urge to run through the whole conversation in my mind and correctly contextualize the whole thing into my memory framework.
I often do this and resolve incomplete memories by retrospective analysis.

So I wanted to create a map for these kinds of experiences of dissociation and a loss of consciousness.
Generally when we lose consciousness, we assume we will just faint and fall down.
But this is not necessarily the case.
There are a lot of cases where our consciousness goes dim but yet that does not stop interactions and movement from happening.
Take the case, when you are crazy drunk, so drunk that the pyramidal cells in the brain are stopped from encoding to long term memory. In that situation, you move, talk, laugh, have a lot of emotions and conversations, but it is all spontaneous without any ego presence.
These are times, where things happen, but your story-making/contextualizing apparatus is offline.
The most scary version of this might be the date-rape drug or datura, which causes you to lose all will power and simply comply blindly.

I have had these experiences happen even on weed, when there is total absorption into music, so much, that when the song ends, you forget that you even heard a song and it feels like the song lasted an eternity.
Another example of this would be skydiving – that one minute fall was so immersive, my ego/contextualizing/story-making apparatus went offline during the 1 minute fall. So the fall felt like just a few moments vs. a full 60 seconds.

These experiences have always disturbed my ego/central narrative making/story making apparatus.
These events represented holes in my ego control.
Generally prospecting the future requires holding a lot in memory, we prospect the future from this memory base.
For instance if you are playing chess, to decide your next move and plan/strategize requires you to use a lot of your memory.
Imagine if you looked at the position of one chessboard piece, and then as you moved your eyes to look at the next piece, you forgot the position of your first piece, how would you ever strategize how to make the next move?
It takes an incredible amount of working memory to play.

Earlier when I had a strong ego narrative going, all my actions were much more top-down.
In the sense all my actions would be mainly determined by my central practices and goals.
Nowadays, that central narrative has thinned out so much, I find myself in a chaos, a state much closer to a incoherent dream, with various snippets of coherent meanings arising and passing with no central unifier.

So nowadays, events happen by themselves with little consciousness from my side, and then I reflect and write about it later on – extracting insights, weaving the story thread and so on.

Now coming to the abstract part:
There is either a shortage of consciousness or an excess of it relative to movement/happening.
Here are some interesting spectrums to consider:
Unconscious doing, doing > consciousness ————– Conscious doing, doing < consciousness
Happening without consciousness —————— Happening with consciousness
Little happening, high consciousness —————- Lot happening, high consciousness
Little happening, little consciousness ————— Lot happening, little consciousness
The prospect that there can be happening without my consciousness is terrifying for me.
But consciousness is just the tip of the iceberg.
Most of happening is infact unconscious, an enormous amount.

Another interesting connection is between will-power and memory.
The lowering of memory (holding on) fades away will-power in equal measure.
The self/ego is memory. And will power is a function of this.
So memory is the key stone here.
Remove memory and all vanishes.

Memory = Continuity = Time = Self = Thought frame


Memory = Continuity = Time = Apparent Self = Thought frame
—-[Memory appearance 1]—-[Memory appearance 2]—-[Memory appearance 3]—-
—-Discontinuity 1—-[Continuity 1]—-Discontinuity 2—-[Continuity 2]—-Discontinuity 3—-[Continuity 3]—-
—-[Timeline 1]—-[Timeline 2]—-[Timeline 3]—-
—-[Context Self 1]—-[Context Self 2]—-[Context Self 3]—-
—-[Thought frame 1]—-[Thought frame 2]—-[Thought frame 3]—-

From the bed of chaos/creation/ocean of all possibility – arises an ordered linear temporal self(verb), like an ocean generating a temporal wave – and the wave rises to its peak and then falls back into the ocean.