Depression is when the distance between ‘What is’ and ‘What I want/What should be/’ gets great enough to break the chain of hope.
The ‘What is’ and ‘What I want’ are always playing a game of cat and mouse with each other.
‘What is’ —————— —-(The pull of passion, hope, belief, meaning)—>>>>>> ———-‘What I want’
When the rift between them gets too large, the tension of passion, hope and belief loses its power and gets disconnected.
‘What is’———– ……………(long distance)…….. ———-‘What I want’
Another case is when, you want all kinds of contradictory realities which are not possible, like equally want to experience being married and single, being celibate and sexual, living in a cave and enjoying worldly games and so on. I mean why would you want to forgo anything?
So then too, the bridges between ‘What is’ and ‘What I want’ are broken
‘What is’ ———————————————–‘What I want 1’
————————————‘What I want 2’
————————————‘What I want 3’
————————————‘What I want n’
Which one will you take if there are 1000s of them? And for each one you’ll need an entirely different structure. And each one of these realities would take enormous time to create and nurture? How can you have all of them? Each is a parallel universe of possibilities.
So, as you contemplate ‘what I want’, the desires reach more and more lofty unattainable contradictory impossible levels. Correspondingly the distance/bridges between ‘What is’ and the ‘What I want’ gets so large, that the hope/passion/belief/meaning gets broken. When you see the futility and the impossibility of the task of getting to ‘What I want’, you resign and get depressed.
Now everything that happens in ‘What is’ is unsatisfactory to ‘What I want’ and since the bridge itself is broken, you are just doing things but with the baggage of great dissatisfaction.
Now the only way out is to dissolve the ‘What I want’ and stay with the ‘What is’. Staying with the ‘What is’ continuously 24×7 as a practice, in time, will create enough counter karma to remove the karma of maintaining ‘What I want’. Another way to satisfy your intellectual side would be to see the logical impossibility of getting ‘What I want’. This is because, you cannot get the infinite by any conception of ‘What I want’. And the Infinite >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> What I want. So to that degree your dissatisfaction would also be EXTREMELY high because you want the infinite, but you only get a single conception with your egoic efforts.