The seeds outside and within

You can only connect with or experience the seed outside you, 
If it awakens the corresponding seed inside you.
Let’s put a scale of 1-10 to this seed aliveness.
Generally there is also a threshold of aliveness needed for you to become conscious of the seed aliveness and its activity.
People who get overwhelmed and overstimulated easily, have a lower threshold,
While people who gravitate to extreme levels of stimulation, have a higher threshold.

Resonance with others (i.e. between your seed and their seed activity) will excite your own seeds.
This excitation, amplification, or enhancement is then felt within.
If you have a low threshold for consciousness of these things,
The resonance will often appear to bring back to life, seemingly dead seeds within you.

We often seek others or cues that will stimulate the seeds within us we identify with and want to enhance.
For instance, say you have a seed desire within you that wants to go window shopping at the mall.
Let’s say it is below your threshold of consciousness (threshold: 4, and this seed is at 2)
If someone else, a friend say, comes along with the same seed desire but at aliveness level 8, he/she will be clearly conscious of this want.
If they then ask you whether you want to join them in a trip to the mall, this proposal will now increase your seed aliveness temporarily in their presence to 6 because of resonance, and you will become dimly aware of your own desire to join them and may likely say yes to it.

If you have a very limited ego identity you will only identify with some seeds and try to get rid of most of the others.
Accordingly you will also have a very narrow relationship with the outside world, limited to only things and people that maintain or grow those ‘identified-with seeds’.
If your ego identity is diffuse and vast, you will be an empath and be able to connect through many many more seeds.
That is about identity.
The next variables are about energetic activation and consciousness threshold.
If your consciousness threshold is very low, say 1/10, then you are like an owl, super sensitive and can see in the dark. You will probably get overwhelmed easily and perceive a ton of things.
If your consciousness threshold is very high, say 7/10, then you will only feel seed activities within that cross that threshold. So there will be a constant need for very high stimulation.
If your net seed energies and activity are at a low ebb (<3/10) then you will feel depressed, empty, and blank.
Whereas when your net seed energies are high (>7/10) you will feel alive, rich, and euphoric.

Some drugs enhance the seed energy which are generally called stimulants.
While certain drugs lower the consciousness thresholds in different ways like LSD.
The drugs could do both too.
Both result in an enrichment of experience we call high or euphoria.
Meditation in silence generally is to lower the consciousness threshold, so that you end up feeling rich even with lowered activation.
Whereas LSD might stimulate the energies to a higher pitch causing a bunch of seed activity to cross your consciousness threshold.
Also, if you already have lower consciousness threshold coupled with LSD, then your euphoria and richness will be overwhelmingly higher than someone with the higher threshold.
Meditation lowers the threshold, while psychedelics raise the seed powers.
So they both assist each other.

The morphogenetic field is also the influence by resonance from others to us.
It is sort of like a quantum entanglement.

Everything goes around

Whatever you give out,
Gets stored in the other.
In your every action of relating,
You are passing on that energy to the other.
They then store it and manifest that same energy you gave,
To someone else, sometime or the other.

It is a grand game of passing the parcel.
Whatever a mother gives a child, the child will then store that, and then manifest that in the world.
Whatever a spouse gives the other spouse, the other stores that, and then manifests that to the world, sometime later.
Everything goes round and round.

So by relating well with the other,
You are actually planting those seeds in the other.
Your deep intention etc is stored in them,
And they may manifest that same energy much later,
To some other person, in some other place and time.

Not all causation is from what you see.
These hidden unseen causes may have passed on the real seeds.

The descent into chaos

chaos

Essentially this experience of mine,
Is a descent into chaos,
Where my body loses its coherence,
And organizes itself around a swarm of chaotic desires,
That form the full backdrop of my experience (as shown in the picture),
While the foreground has me doing all the usual jobs to survive.

It feels like the state in-between lives,
Like a kind of bardo,
Like the night sky full of stars (unlimited possibilities),
Vs. the sunny sky (few overruling possibilities).

But this chaos is also the breeding ground,
For offshoots of creativity,
Because of the sheer awareness of swarms of possibilities.
I feel like I’m swimming in the very same ocean of chaos,
That the psychotic drowns in,
Because my eyes are open here in this ground.
I intuit that this seems like the precondition for psychological rebirth,
Where when the season is right,
A certain powerful creative influx will spring me out of this place/phase,
And organize my life into the next higher freq struct.

This lack of organization diminishes vitality though,
And puts me in a state closer to death.
Birth is really a state where an desire/inspiration seed is sprouting.
So in this case, one sort of returns closer to the seed,
Which is likely to sprout again from a new desire/inspiration,
When the outer conditions are favorable, like the Spring season.

Birth is like Spring, Death is like Winter, for the seed.
The cycle of seasons continue,
Resulting in cycles of birth and death continuously,
Until one transcends in their identity,
And when all desires are sublimated.

Birth and Death follow each other.
Every death heralds a birth following it.
This is the principle.
How long it takes is not as relevant,
That is only a matter of degree.

The seed and the tree

life-cycle-apple-tree-stages

The seed is the innate potential.
The tree is what the environment allows in the seed.
This seed-tree analogy could be applied to multiple truths/contexts.
For instance:
Your DNA/Biology is like your seed,
While your social ego/self/identity/conditioning would be like the tree.

The seed’s responsibility is to give out all of its potential.
The tree’s responsibility is to stay a match/align to its environment.

What is hell?

hell

RULE: “Hell is the extent to which you believe things must be otherwise.”
This creates enormous resistance.
But resistance also awakens consciousness.
And the seed of overcoming the resistance through letting go into transformation is hidden inside the resistance.
So the hell itself contains the seed to come out of it.
Hell is like getting into a deep adventure and finding your way back home.
To the degree to which you are far away from home/your source, to that degree the intensity/suffering and thereby force for getting back home will be greater.