When it comes to good/bad, right/wrong, noble/evil,
I think it is more often a ‘short-term vs long-term’ idea.
Good is often seen as a long-standing solution,
While bad is often seen from taking the much shorter easier routes,
Where the gains may rapidly or abruptly reverse themselves over time.
In a way, time will reverse everything no matter if good or bad.
So the notions of good and bad are in a relative sense.
Relatively longer lasting is seen as better and good.
‘Reason’ as a crutch used for acceptance
I feel like ‘Reason’ is often used as a crutch for acceptance.
Is it possible to accept directly without it?
Without having a reason? Without making a reason?
I sometimes feel like the need to know/understand/reason is also a crutch.
We use all of that to make the acceptance more bearable.
The knowledge from drugs
The ‘knowledge’ obtained from drugs does not come from the drugs, but comes from you.
Drugs are similar to books in that way.
The book is not the knowledge,
It is food for your mind, only if you are capable of digesting-absorbing-assimilating it.
Happiness is an elusive paradox
Happiness is like sleep.
I cannot study it,
Because when I am in it,
I am not there.
What is the real saviour?
It is not ignorance that saves you,
Nor is it knowledge that saves you.
Rather, it is ‘knowledge of ignorance’ that is the real saviour.
Free will feels like the mirage illusion
Free will feels like the mirage illusion in my experience.
If I don’t pay close attention to it or without close examination,
It feels like it is always there.
But once I really concentrate on it and pay very close attention,
I find that it vanishes.
Then once again, once my mind moves over to other things,
The free will component seems to reappear.
It reminds me of the illusion of solidity we experience.
When looking deeper and deeper into the atom,
We find 99.99% empty space.
But yet on returning to daily life,
We once again experience solidity everywhere.
The 2 variables of environment and control
There are 2 variables: Environment, Control
This could apply to the external (outer-circumstances) or internal (identity) domain.
From the most pleasant to the most unpleasant, I can think of 4 levels:
1. You could have an environment so good, that is not only already pleasant, but more and more pleasantness keeps outpouring/blossoming from it. No control is even needed in this case. Blessings are simply overflowing without any intervention.
2. You could have an environment that is stable and neutral, such that, you can use your effort to get more and more pleasure. This would be the realm of hobbies, passions, explorations, romances, achievements, endeavours, adventures etc.
3. You could have a hostile environment, that is quite unstable, such that it imprisons and enslaves you even to just maintain stability. Here there is constant struggle, using control just to keep things ok.
4. You could have an environment so hostile, and so unstable, that everything around you devolves and worsens, and even the exertion of all your control only slows and makes somewhat bearable this unstoppable fall.
I could call the first 2 levels as heavens and the last 2 levels as hells.
The 1st world, 2nd world ——vs—— The 3rd world, 4th world
The blind men and the elephant analogy describes our experience with time
Time = Kala/Darkness/Blankness.
When it comes to time, we live like blind men.
Unable to see beyond the present moment,
Living moment to moment.
Someone whose time is good says life is good,
Someone whose time is bad says life is bad.
Who is right?
Someone who is dying says life is destruction.
Someone who is at a thriving stage says life is constructive.
Who has the correct view of what life is?
This reminds me of the analogy of the blind men and the elephant.
Depending on what they feel,
They create a model of what life is based on that.
We live moment to moment, unable to sense time itself.
With our eyes open we can perceive reasonably large amounts of space.
But when it comes to time, we have no such sense.
The longer we live, the more we use our memory to model what life is like.
But we only base our idea by retrospect.
If time changes in a way that is different from our immediate past,
We cannot know.
What is the value you bring to others?
RULE: “We do onto others, what we do onto ourselves first.”
The way we treat/deal/work with ourselves is the way we treat/deal/work with others too.
One’s value then is basically what one does onto oneself.
That same doing just gets extended/projected to the other.
So in essence: We serve others the way we serve ourselves.
About transformation and true life
All transformation is by definition towards ‘the unknown’.
The surrender into it is not from any specific calculation.
It is ‘change’ for its own sake, and the ‘yielding’ to it.
The slogan here is:
“I am not trying to change, rather I am just allowing change to change me.”
“The whole moves the whole, no part moves the whole.”
True life is not about one’s smartness or calculations.
It is for its own sake.
It is the indiscriminate surrender into dissolution.
It is along the lines of: “Thy shall be done” or “Let thy be done”.
It is allowing the flowering, blossoming, maturing, burning up, unfolding of life through one, whatever the case may be.
It is like a great unravelling.
It is the indiscriminate and total willingness to dissolve into the greater.
It resembles a kind of great love.
That one dies into willingly.
It is not something a part of you does to gain something.
It is not something that is chosen.
Rather, it is something that one falls into,
When there is the realization that there is nothing greater that one can desire.
It is like falling into a black hole,
And letting the black hole turn you inside out.
Everything goes through a 180degrees reversal here,
As the mystics have shared since ages.
Whatever was once believed to be outside,
Is now seen as the projection of one’s inside.
Connects to the saying: “We do not see the world as it is, but as we are”.
It reminds me of the idea of the philosophers stone.
A peculiar saying that goes along the lines:
“The philosophers stone is not an object in your imagination,
Rather, you are the imagination of the philosophers stone.”
One never returns to the regular worldview after this.
This black hole is the passage/portal through which one exits this great illusion.
It is simply unimaginable and impossible to explain to the uninitiated.
It is like stepping out of this great magical spell that makes us believe we are a body in this world.
The past idea of the world and all that was believed to be real knowledge fades like a dream.
One is then carried through this vortex by the will of life itself,
From the known shores into the unknown.
Journey to the Abstract 