Creativity is at its best for me in twilight (metaphorically speaking).
Very bright lights/loud sounds = Make me purely receptive and outer focused (all senses are basically receptive in nature, right)
Very low light/low sounds = Make me sleepy and comatose.
So when there is just the right amount of visual/sound intensity,
I can simultaneously access the inner and outer spaces,
And let the outer cues stimulate the inner space well.
The thresholds of sensitivity may however vary from person to person.
Creativity is an “inside -> out” action.
While, sensing is an “outside -> in” action.
There is ‘sensory appetite/hunger’.
When that is adequately satisfied,
Naturally, there is a sort of retreat to the dark to digest/process it all.
This processing is then what I think is often the source of creative works.
I am only the translator/decoding-instrument,
Of the winds of vibrations I receive.
My in-sight sees/enjoys and translates the experiences,
That pass through me.
That is why my blog is titled ‘perception flow’ (in the URL),
Which is the collection of these translations.
I am just the seer.
I can play with whatever flows/passes through my space,
In the flowing river of content/appearances,
Like a spherical mirror or diamond,
Flying through creation and reflecting it in its own unique way.
All of this is what I have captured,
In the net of my perceptual faculty or vessel.
It is all food from the gods/higher-dimensions,
With which I enrich my being and experience.
But my true nature is simply “NOT”.
It transcends all of this.
I am not the seen nor the implied seer.
The seer-seen appear together and go together,
Like the negative-film and photo go together.
I appear as various seer-seen combos,
In the river of flowing content-appearances.
In my experience,
I alternate between all sorts of extremes.
I [tornado, whirlpool, distill, centrifuge](as a verb) everything into its essence.
And what I see is that the final essence of everything is source itself.
That is why I titled my blog ‘Journey to the Abstract’.
Since I see the greatest unity is also the most abstract.
God/source in a way is the ultimate abstract.
I feel like my life does not have a central sun,
It feels more like,
I’m moving fast in a train,
Post-midnight watching fireflies,
Whose lights bob in and out of existence.
Occasionally I do pass by some stations,
Which are full of bright lights.
A lot of the my life though,
Has been experienced in the twilight/liminal zone.
My favorite time of the day is sunset.
The sun yields,
To let all the lesser lights and the universe pour through.
The ego and the sun have a lot of similarities imo.
When the sun shines,
The whole sky is overpowered by its light and power.
While in the evening as the sun sets,
There is then the “revelation” of the cosmos/universe/stars.
Reminds me of life and death.
Maybe when we die, we will receive a similar revelation.
‘Recognition’ generally is about others recognizing you,
Which is essentially, others seeing you as part of themselves,
Since what we see in and as others, is only the reflection of our self.
We only see ourselves (aspects of ourselves) in all the others we meet.
Others seeing you, really is them seeing you in them.
Whereas you recognizing others, is you seeing them within you.
All deep recognition is from an identification.
You intimately experience within, that which you recognize.
All riches is really only riches of consciousness.
All true riches is the riches of your inner space experience (Hiranyagarba/Mindscape).
Your riches do not come from others recognizing you.
That is really their riches,
Because that is from them experiencing you in their own inner space.
Your riches are what you can recognize/understand/experience/identify/connect with.
Your “level of vision” is connected to how deep your inner “point of observation” is.
Deeper the inner “point of observation” = higher or deeper the vision.
The people whom we consider visionary or gurus, have very deep points of observation relative to others.
Which is why they are considered as such, as visionaries or gurus.
To give an example/analogy:
Suppose you climb on top of a mountain and now you can see the whole village from a higher vantage point of view.
Now, someone in the space station viewing the earth has a far higher point of observation.
This person in the space station is therefore capable of much greater seeing, and therefore has the potential for much greater understanding, context, and knowledge.
He can not only see that you climbed that mountain, he can also see all the surrounding mountains, where you are on earth etc. (essentially a phenomenally greater amount of information).
The space station person can TRIANGULATE your position and say communicate with you by RADIO.
When you are on top of the mountain, it looks like there is nowhere higher to go.
But the deeper visionary sees you like the man in the space station sees you standing on the mountain.
Let’s take 2 cases:
1. When you are in your own space.
2. When you are in a shared space with others.
When you are in your own space,
Various interests bubble up into your mind,
And the strongest one usually gets your attention/focus/investment/energy.
When you are in a shared group-space with others,
Then the different people are in a relationship with each other.
The following questions come up:
# Who is going to set the frame?
Will there be multiple smaller frames between the people?
Will the frame organically emerge or will it be a chaos?
# Who is naturally receiving? Who is naturally emitting?
# Who is open/malleable? Who is rigid/closed?
# What are the intentions/expectations of the various people around?
# Where are each of these people coming from?
# What is the common larger frame? What are the expectations? cultural structs? societal structs? governing that.
# What can I say, what can I not say?
# What are the set of possible topics I can speak about?
All this can be sensed.
All of these come under “social dynamics”.
This invariably happens when a group of people get together and create a group space.
I am the great dissolver.
I am the hammer that powders things.
I am sulphuric acid to dissolves solids.
I am fire that burns the liquid to vapor.
I am the air that blows out the fire.
I am the ether that stills the air into pure vibration.
I am the space, that stills the vibration into nothingness.
This is a really vast topic.
I’ll try to summarize some salient points.
Social interactions, camaraderie, and group eros, are mostly about energetic tuning. Everyone tunes into a similar energy space/context.
The words and activities then exchanged, are all a play, happening within the common context.
If you can harmonize, tune in, to the other’s/group’s energy signature, then you can say whatever you want, and it will be globally accepted.
On the other hand, if your energy signature does not tune into the other’s/group’s energy, then your very presence itself will feel awkward, even if you choose to say nothing.
So the essence of social interaction is = “energy/context tuning/harmonization”.
It is a certain trance, a certain absorption.
You bridge the distance between: Where you are, and where the other is.
There are different combinations possible:
# You go all the way to them [Codependent]
# They come all the way to you [Narcissist]
# You go all the way to them and then they come all the way to you [My preference].
# Both meet somewhere in the middle [Common dissociation, The general social reality and formal situations fall here].
So essentially all interaction/communion = is about bridging the distance, and closing the gap.
So really, the capacity you have for communion in social interactions depends on your conditioning/investment/interest or desire.
If you are relatively de-conditioned, then you have to make the stretch to meet the conditioned others. Often they cannot come to you. You go to them.
Situational friendships are because both the people are tuned to a common context, which is like the 4th combination in my list.
These friendships fade, when the common context is vacated.
A person permanently in the societal frame, has substantially repressed his individuality, and entirely invested in the middle ground. He enjoys communion at all times, but at the cost of his deeper individuality.
On the other hand, a hermit might happen when his conditioning is such that meeting others is too much of a stretch. So he lives in his own space/authenticity, until the other comes to him.
When attention shifts,
From foreground to background,
From form to formless,
From objects to space,
From light to darkness,
From known to unknown,
From linear to non-linear,
From outward to inward,
From reflections to source,
From time to flow,
From cyclic to non-cyclic,
From manifest to unmanifest,
From creation to the unborn,
From manifest to potential,
From stars to the void of space,
From content to context,
From control to surrender,
From fear to devotion,
From identification to freedom,
You return to God.
Solving things is irrelevant.
The real solution is always dissolution.
The real solution to anything is the transcendence of that thing.
Where the problem is subsumed and swallowed,
Into a higher space/context within you that is awakened.
The problem-solution paradigm exists in darkness,
Once the light is brightened, it all vanishes into the light.
Like how when you wake up from sleep, the dream vanishes.
Like how all the ghosts simply disappear once sunlight shines.