# Pleasure is beginnings, pain is endings # Pleasure is expansion, pain is contraction # Pleasure is success, pain is failure # Pleasure is to seek, pain is to withdraw # Pleasure is to accelerate, pain is to brake # Pleasure is to birth, pain is to put to rest # Pleasure is growth, pain is retardation/regression # Pleasure is wonder, pain is horror # Pleasure opens possibilities, pain collapses possibilities
The cycle of birth and death, Seems to have a very close analogy with the water cycle, in my understanding.
As the water vapor rises, the air gets colder, Condensation happens, rain clouds begin to form, It rains over the mountains, Forming various river streams.
Various ice formations from the top of the mountains also mix into these streams. The streams carry the ice along with them in their journey. They slowly gather more and more material.
Some of these streams become mighty rivers, Some of these streams remain fairly thin, Some of these streams crash somewhere and stop. Some streams go alone all the way. Some streams confluence and form large rivers.
Finally, all of the water (from all the streams) evaporates, And becomes vapor and rises. In this manner, the cycle goes on and on.
Every incarnation seems like a unique path/stream. It descends upon the point of birth(the mountains), Gathering unique material along its path, And in the end, the water leaves everything behind, And rises out of all the matter gathered.
Whether the stream was abruptly brought to a stop, Or whether it joined the ocean and then vaporized from there, The evaporation eventually happens nevertheless.
Maybe the stream may end up in a hot place causing rapid evaporation, Or the stream may end up in a cold place causing slow evaporation, But that is only a difference in degree, not essence. The essentially process whether shortened or lengthened is still going to happen.
Our spirit-energy I feel is like water in essence. It can mix with the earth in all its 3 states – existing as ice, water, vapor. It mixes with the earth and identifies with various kinds of solid, liquid, and gaseous material, But all of the material can be distilled out to give back pure ice, water, or vapor.
Time gives all and takes all, But nothing of true value is ever gained or lost. Nothing real can be threatened, and nothing unreal exists. All loss is only loss of the illusion of taking the appearance to be real. No thing exists, only ‘nothing’ exists.
The withdrawal of the projection: The world falls back onto the Indriyas (senses), The Indriyas (senses) fall back onto Manas (mind), The Manas falls back into the Pranas (life energies/breath), The Pranas fall back into Tejas (fire/heat of the body), Lastly, Tejas falls back into Sat (reality).
Which is better? Case 1: Explicit: 110010101011100100111100… Implicit: 001101010100011011000011… Case 2: Explicit: 00101110110101110100111100… Implicit: 11010001001010001011000011… Both Case 1 and 2 are ‘Whole’, ‘Infinite’, ‘Balanced’ and ‘Total’, right?
Similarly, I feel ‘Birth Charts’ are like an unfolding art work. The imprinted subject experiences the flow of time from its perspective/view-point.
Here is a fractal/picture containing an equal number of angels and demons:
What do you see? The interesting thing is, you can only see one at a time, But the reality is the mesh of both.
So I feel, existentially, every chart is something like this. I feel every chart can be used for growth, understanding, awareness, evolution, And all the things that really matter. Socially however, some charts might be much more valued than others. Existentially speaking I feel it’s all balanced.
Mistaken essence is the cause of sorrow/suffering. There is only God/Brahman/Field/Consciousness. That is the only essence. All else that is experienced is the play of this singular essence. So no part of what is seen is essence. The mistake is to mistake any part of this play to be essence.
It is like gold that is continuously being remodeled and smelted. Here gold is the essence, and all of the ornaments made with it are subject to change. So no ornament-form is essence. Similarly no form in existence is essence. Essence is formless and quality-less, And it is not graspable as an object. One can only be it and experience it directly.
Another analogy would be a VR game, Where only the “hardware/software/power” are real. The rest of experience is just the play-out of those 3 as the flow of time. This is analogous to our essence play as the BME (Body, Mind, Energy) process in time.
No thing is real, and no thing exists. Only god/brahman/field/consciousness exists. The evolution process is the play/dream of this field, And our individual experience is like a figment of this evolution process.
Every aspect of existence that we see outside, Has a corresponding component of that within ourselves too. Perception is from resonance/recognition/alignment. That is why it is said “You only experience the self, not the world”, OR “You experience the world only as reflected in your self”.
All perception is a kind of resonance between the outer and the inner. It is not that the outer and inner are separated in time by a linear process. They simultaneous spawn, Like how the dreamer character and the dream environment spawn together simultaneously. Like for example, if you start to hate some aspect of yourself, At that very instant, you also simultaneously prime yourself into hating all other potential reminders/representations/symbols/patterns of that aspect from the outside.
This is because, reality is ‘experience’, And experience is fractal in nature. What you hold in mind, you see outside. And what you see outside, you hold in mind. You see similar motifs/patterns/symbols/representations, i.e. all that reflect the idea that you are holding. The outer-inner appear to be in a constant state of transaction. Sometimes an inner change alters the outer perception. Sometimes an outer change alters the perception of the inner.
So from this level of perspective, There is not even a you vs an other or inner vs outer. It is a single swath that instantly manifests together. The attitudes I hold towards every aspect of existence, Multiply themselves infinitely and instantly throughout the entire scape of existence.
When saying ‘The attitudes I hold…’, I was implying that I am the determiner. But actually, when delving deeper, I see that even these attitudes, Also seem to be ‘appearances’. Rather then being something I determine, They seem to be flowing through and expressing through me. My ability to alter them or control them, Seems to be determined by how much energy/power I have, And my level of perception and dis-identification i.e. whether I can even perceive those attitudes as objects in my awareness. This energy level is again conditional of sort, again the effect of many other cyclic processes.
To dis-identify from anything, you must first have the power/energy to separate yourself from it and see it as an object. When enmeshed and identified into something, Even if you can see this enmeshment, You need enough power/freq/energy to extricate yourself out of that. It is similar to how we need enough external force to overcome newton’s first law of inertia.
Generally, you function from a certain station of freq, While accessing all kinds of states from there. This I call the LOC (level of consciousness) of the subtle body. I could say, ‘What you are is where you are seeing from’. What you do not see, will be something you are subject to, and it will rule you from within. What you do see, is something subject to you, and can be ruled.
For many people, what I see is that, their life-fires/soul are enmeshed and identified with their genetics (to varying degrees/levels). It is like they are embedded inside those grids, and therefore all of their life fires only serve the demands of those structures. They are completely unaware of this, because they identify totally with the feelings/perceptions arising from these grids. It reminds me of animals, how they function only within 2 lines, only within a certain set pattern. For human beings, it seems, The bottom line is similar to reptiles/mammals, But the top line is super high. The spectrum is vast and there is enormous potential to rise up in awareness.