Identity, Desire, and Memory

‘Identity’ with ‘Memory’ spawns ‘Desire’.
Memories are like accumulations.
They can be at different levels.
They add on top of each other like a multi-storey building

Our original identity is “LIFE/SPIRIT”,
The formless intelligence that simply IS (Pure being).
This identity then mixed with memory at various levels.
Pure Life/Spirit channeled through [Identity with Memory] = Spawns Desire/Force.
Like how electricity is first channeled through your laptop power supply,
And then through all the laptop’s hardware produces its output.

RULE: All force is generated through structure.
So every structure, when identified with, empowers it with spirit,
And spirit begins functioning THROUGH that structure, manifesting as desire/force.
Desire therefore can be seen as a modification of spirit passing through a memory/structure due to identification with it.

Approximately here are the different levels of memory:
(Identifications with these memories can build on top of each other,
And create corr. desire forces)

Spirit/life = true identity (operates at a level of freedom outside memory)
M1 = Soul karmic memory = Desire 1(D1)
M2 = Evolutionary memory = Desire 2(D2)
M3 = Cultural/Ancestry-Genetic memory = Desire 3(D3)
M4 = Family/Social Conditioning memory = Desire 4(D4)
M5 = Personality memory = Desire 5(D5)
M6 = Mental memory = Desire 6(D6)
M7 = Emotional memory = Desire 7(D7)
M8 = Sensory memory = Desire 8(D8)

So if [M1+M2+M3+M4+M5+M6+M7] are identified with,
Then spirit operates through all those structs,
And you get the conscious desire of D8.

Alternatively, if [M1+M2+M3+M4+M5] are identified with,
Then spirit operates through all of those,
Giving you the conscious desire of D6.

In degree of vastness,
D1 is infinitely vaster than D6.
Every subsequent desire is nested in its higher desire as a possibility.
You can say [M1,D1], [M2,D2] etc. are [structure->forces] residing in their corresponding dimensions.
The entire lower dimension is from one of the structures in the higher dimension.

The dimensions are linked like a chain.
Coming from the source [which is life/spirit],
And building up from M1 to M8, like a multi-storey building.

All transformation is from the intervention of a higher dimension on a lower one,
And this goes on until we finally reach the unfathomable identification with infinite intelligence/life/spirit/pure consciousness itself.
Once this station has been reached,
It sets all of the other dimensions completely free.

Your freedom, degree of freedom, or potential for freedom,
Depends on which dimension your conscious identity is residing in.

The idea of causation begins with you

The idea of causation begins with you.
If you see yourself as the ‘doer’,
You would accordingly see causation everywhere.
On the other hand,
If you see yourself as a non-doer,
That is, as an effect (of a deeper mystery/plane of forces) rather than a cause,
Then you see the same mystery reflected everywhere outside too.

Our perception of the outside is a fractal projection,
Whose pattern self-replicates from our inner pattern/understanding/view.
The depth to which you know yourself,
Is the same depth with which you see the outer existence.

A description of the Dark Night of the Soul

# Participation turns into Withdrawal
# Investment turns into Disinvestment
# Enchantment turns into Disenchantment
# Attraction turns into Disgust
# Love turns into Hate
# Passion turns into Dispassion
# Interest turns into Disinterest
# Attraction turns into Aversion
# Energy turns into Tiredness
# Ecstasy turns into Deep-Grief
# Gain turns into Loss
# Vitality turns into Depression
# Vibrance turns into Listlessness
# Activity turns into Inactivity
# Vigor turns into Torpor
# Order turns into Chaos
# Focus turns into Confusion
# Hope turns into Hopelessness
# Bliss turns into Dread
# Peace turns into Suffering
# Laughing turns into Crying
# Pleasure turns into Pain
# Meaning turns into Meaninglessness
# Quest towards life turns into Quest towards death
# Ambition turns into Apathy
# Happiness turns into Sadness
# Clarity turns into Fog
# Awakeness turns into Stupor
# Aliveness turns into Deadness
# Desire turns into Fear
# Reality turns into Appearance
# Truth turns into Illusion/Maya
# Flow turns into Resistance
# Light turns into Darkness
# Knowing turns into Unknowing
# Becoming turns into Unbecoming
# Good-Sleep turns into Sleeplessness
# Novelty turns into Tedium
# Prized-Assets turn into Burdens
# Health turns into Disease
# Relationships turn into Isolation/Desertion
# Growth turns into Decay
# Prominence turns into Fading/Invisibility
# Importance turns into Neglect
# Development turns into Stagnation/Atrophy
# Victory turns into Defeat
# Pride turns into Humiliation
# Independence turns into Dependence
# Thriving turns into Desperation

Why I like progressive trance


I like to listen to progressive trance,
Because I want to spin as rapidly as I can,
Like a tornado or windmill,
With the greatest oomph, thump, power, push, momentum,
With perfection, balance, stillness, harmony, symmetry,
Until all of the me inside me is all freed,
Until all of my freeze is fully shaken off,
Until all that is not me is centrifuged out of me.

I want to just ‘get lost’/vanish/disappear into the groove,
I want to completely escape into another altered state,
I want to just run away as fast as I possibly can,
I want to be moved, overpowered, carried away,
I want to be absorbed, engulfed, enraptured, entranced, enthralled,
I want to get lost in the frenzy,
I want to lose myself.

See polarity pairs together

When it comes to polarities,
Each polarity-pair is a dimension-spectrum of experience.
It is like the motion of the pendulum from left to right, then right to left.

Each explicit manifest polarity, houses within itself the implicit potential opposite polarity.
So every swing creates a potential, for which there is a compensatory movement to the opposite pole.

There are a bunch of such pendulums swinging, some wildly and some softly.
So we bob back and forth from the 0, for each polarity-set or dimension-spectrum.

This dance of polarity with its momentum is the dance of experience itself.
It is this movement that manifests experience itself.
Everything is known or experienced only in contrast.

There is only the inversion of the explicit and implicit in experience-time.
For instance, richness is implicit to the explicit experience of poverty, and vice versa.

For each polarity-set,
There are cycles/vibrations happening at different amplitudes/strengths and periods/rates.
Which keep on increasing as we go from:
Universe -> World/Earth -> Body senses -> Mind -> Consciousness.
For instance, the Saturn orbit cycle is 29 years,
While night and day cycle on earth is 24 hours.
Going further, your senses are working at an even faster vibration rate/clock speed.
Then going even further your mind is at an even faster vibration rate/clock speed,
Because it is the mind that interprets the senses and their data.
And finally, we have ‘Consciousness’ itself which operates at the highest clock speed/finest fastest vibratory rate.
Consciousness is like the primordial substrate of experience,
The primordial aliveness that lets you experience anything.

Thought and Chemistry

I have observed that,
There is a bi-directional relationship between,
The thought world —and— The body chemistry world.
Each reflects the other.

Changing the thought world => Changes the chemistry world.
Changing the chemistry world => Changes the thought world.

Being stuck in certain thought patterns => Keeps your chemistry patterns stuck too.
Being stuck in certain body chemistry patterns => Keeps your thought patterns stuck too.

There are 2 other aspects too,
Of continuity/linearity —vs—- discontinuity/quantum jump.
A fresh inspiration from nowhere is a discontinuous quantum jump influence,
While predictable calculated expected events are in the continuity/linearity aspect.

There is also a mapping or link,
Running between the sensory world and the thought-chemistry worlds.
Which is the influence of what we call the external world,
On our thought-chemistry worlds.

Another link is a link from:
Our thought-chemistry worlds to a kind of over/super-mind.
(inspired from Aurobindo’s models)
This over/super-mind is the source of fresh ideas/inspiration.
Like a link between the “higher dimension of potential creation” to “our dimension”.

In Kabbalah there are 4 worlds:
Atziluth(supermind world) — Briah(thought world) — Yetizah(chemistry world) — Assiah(sensory world).
It seems like parts of the higher world, in this chain, are incubated in the next lower world.
For instance, you can incubate an inspiration from Atziluth in the womb of Briah,
And give it conceptual expression,
Like what I do while writing posts in this blog.
My blog posts are translations of inspirations I receive in vibratory form from a sort of higher dimension/super mind, as I see it.

Each of the descending worlds,
Serves as a womb for the forms received from the next higher world.

Competition serving Cooperation or Cooperation serving Competition

Cooperation serving Competition:
This is like most team sports.
The cooperation is within the team,
But it is meant to serve the higher goal of competition.

Competition serving Cooperation:
This is like the musician maestros of ancient India.
They would all bring their instruments,
And compete to best the other’s performance in each round,
But all of it serving to elevate the level of the art form itself.

My orientation has been towards ‘Competition serving Cooperation’.
Which is of all of us working towards a higher purpose/goal,
While also competing/playing with each other for fun,
Or competing in a way that ultimately serves all.
Like a “win-WIN” (serving as an encouragement for the smaller win),
Instead of a “WIN-LOSE” which is winning at the COST of the other.

Most of the activities I see in the world today,
School, College, Political Debates, Work, Sports, Making money, Business,

Almost all of it seems like the case of “Cooperation for Competition”.
Where everything happens in the same level playing field,
As a kind of zero-sum game,
In a quest for supremacy,
Where it is every man for himself.