In my vision, from a very abstract view, experience has only 3 qualities:
* Vision = The extent of your seeing.
* Power = The extent of your power.
* Sustainability = The extent you can sustain the power.
Power, in its purest form, is self-transformation.
Everything else is a kind of shadow or substitute.
* Control over others or environment = A consolation for lacking the power to see and transform oneself.
It’s reactive and it needs endless force and maintenance.
It is also just blind loyalty to a self you have falsely identified with.
* Self-control = An intermediate step.
It’s internalized power, but limited.
You can restrain impulses or habits, but you’re still structually bound to the mind or circumstances.
It’s like steering a boat along a river you didn’t build.
* Self-transformation = The ultimate power.
Especially when Vision + Power converge: You see what you truly are + actively shape your consciousness and being.
It’s the ability to remodel the very field/structure of existence you inhabit.
True agency is always inward first; everything external is secondary.
Ofc, generating a massive burst of power is not as difficult as sustaining it.
The real challenge is in re-engineering your system to sustain that power/voltage.
The evolutionary master bias
Let’s delve into how things look like from the standpoint of “pure consciousness.”
There are 2 masters:
— Evolutionary reality master (what we call ‘Reality’)
— Altered states/Drugs/Trances master (drastic alterations in experiential-landscape/powers/capacities etc.)
Altered states/Drugs/Trances = They’re snapshots of what consciousness can do if freed from the evolutionary throttles.
Now, why people call drugs “escape” is because the evolutionary master never turns off.
— Evolutionary master keeps you alive.
— The other masters show you what life could feel like if survival wasn’t the priority.
But ontologically all of them are equivalent,
Like seeing 2 different movies on the same screen.
The distinction between “ordinary” and “altered” is just a bias of the evolutionary filter itself.
This is the default hypnosis.
Almost everyone is “loyal” to the evolutionary filter.
People measure everything else by it (“drugs are fake,” “dreams aren’t real,” “visions are imagination”).
Most people instinctively rank: survival is “real,” drugs are “illusory/escape,” mystical states are “holy,” dreams are “just dreams.”
Evolutionary filter = unquestioned baseline (capital-R Reality)
Everything else = treated as derivative, illusory, “less real.”
But this framing removes the privileging.
The evolutionary channel enforces its primacy by brute dominance.
The chit-jada granthi (the knot of consciousness with inert matter) is exactly that binding.
The moment awareness dons form, it accepts the chains of hunger, pain, aging, death, and the endless compulsions of survival.
Embodiment means submission to the evolutionary program.
There is jivanmukti (liberated while living) and videhamukti (liberation at death).
The former is you becoming lucid within the structure.
The latter frees you from the bind itself.
Understanding vs Connection
If connection is there, understanding is just a luxury, not even necessary.
When there is no connection, understanding becomes necessary and mandatory.
The more separate you feel, the more the necessity to understand.
If deep heart resonance is already present, then 2 people can simply join in that ecstasy of shared resonance and synergy (without needing to reflect or understand in post).
Transcendence, in a sense, involves total separation, therefore total understanding too.
When connection is absent or fragile, understanding becomes the bridge.
To do even one thing, you have to do everything
No action is truly isolated.
Every real act arises from the totality of who you are in that moment.
Nothing is isolated.
Every act done is also an act of reorganization of the entire being.
True mastery and the ideal oddly comes only once one is no longer seeking anything from it
I intuitively feel that the only way to live the ideal way in any area of life, is once all desire from that area of life is completed/over/saturated/finished/outgrown.
True mastery and freedom in any domain often comes only when one is no longer seeking anything from it.
This is in every domain: love and relationships, creative work, spirituality, material wealth and success etc.
The highest ideal and freedom can be lived only after desire, not through it.
It’s almost like the difference between karma and dharma.
Dharma seems to be possible only when there is nothing left to extract from that domain.
In other words total dharma is possible only from total transcendence,
And total transcendence is possible only when all desires are consciously lived and thinned out to fade.
All becoming closes innumerable doors
Becoming is a narrowing.
Every form you take,
Is a thousand doors closed.
To become anything, you must pay in time.
The zero sum game of possession and status
Supposing you went to the moon and looked at the earth as a ball from there,
You’d see only 2 games ruling the entirety of humanity.
Possession = Products of nature + Products of human effort
(Both can be bought with money)
Status = How many people like you (quantity) + How much do you like you (quality)
Now the winning condition for these games are:
The ultimate emperor of the earth = A quadrillion dollars in the bank/Ownership of everything + All 8billion people liking/adoring you to the max.
There is unbelievable sophistication that goes into the organizational structures of these 2 games,
But they are zero sum games ultimately, since there is a clear winning condition for each of them.
If you see carefully, it is merely the redrawing of boundaries.
It is like children playing with a chalk on a concrete pavement.
They draw a boundary for each of them and play games that grant the expansion of those boundaries.
So the chalk is rubbed and redrawn into a bigger circle, while the one losing has to erase and redraw a shrunken circle.
People take on and internalize archetypes of charisma to expand their fan base.
This is also the same game played in the invisible psychic sphere.
Just the redrawing of boundaries.
Something like: “I love my spouse 10x more than I love other friends male/female I have”.
So the level of liberty the spouse can take will also be 10x vs. a stranger who can take very little liberty etc.
But we’ve head of jokes right – that go something like a woman saying: “I’d still have sex if Brad Pitt asked me out etc.” which means he could usurp even those boundaries of her husband because of higher status.
Honestly marriage is just possession extended to humans.
One human possessing another.
Off the top of my head, I can think of 2 other games that are not zero sum:
‘Pursuit of knowledge for its own sake’ and ‘Accessing creative genius and leaps of insight’.
Metaphysical inversion principles
I saw a video on the Vsauce Youtube channel speaking about how mirrors do not show us the 4th dimension but rather show us what the 4th dimension can do to us.
I found this endlessly fascinating, and it sparked a ton of new insight related to my previous idea of “Every display is driven by its dual”.
So I came up with these metaphysical inversion principles that expound on the relationship between the apparent self and the world.
Metaphysical Inversion: Key Principles
– The external world is the Self, rotated through a higher dimension – but what appears in that rotation is shaped by what you dis-identify from.
– The outside is the dimensional inversion of identity.
– You can only perceive what isn’t held inside. What you are, you can’t see – only what you are not you see.
– The world becomes an inverted mirror of what you cling to. Whatever you fixate on internally, the world compensates by displaying its opposite.
– The world you see is not a reflection of you – it’s a reflection of what you are not seeing in yourself.
– Your inner pole becomes the blind spot, and the external world shows the counterweight, maintaining the hidden symmetry of totality.
Both maintenance and transformation are dynamic processes
Even what we call stability or identity (e.g.: “I am me”) is really repetition, not permanence.
Change is just a different expression of the same underlying activity.
In both cases, there’s never true stillness – just different flavours of motion.
Even the past is an active construction, maintained by constant remembering and narrating.
Nature doesn’t distinguish between stability and change as opposites.
Both are expressions of process.
Maintenance is not stagnation.
It’s motion disguised as stillness.
Boundaries seem to be artifacts of system dynamics, not fundamental truths.
Take the analogy of an old CRT TV.
It is continuously and rapidly drawing and re-drawing all the images on the screen.
Even if you see the same frozen image, the CRT is actively drawing that same image again and again.
Just like the image persists via refresh, the identity persists via recursive maintenance.
The feeling of being a “continuous self” is actively upheld, like the CRT image.
It needs narrative, repetition, recognition.
The connection between voltage, vision, meaningfulness, and depth
It takes desire to even open your eyes and see just about anything.
It takes desire to even subtly move any muscle at all.
This desire is actually the effect of [Voltage/Potential-difference(PD)] that exists,
Between: Where you are (state A) -> What you are pulled towards (state B),
Between: Where you are (state A) -> Future possibility (state B).
The destination may not even be a final point,
The destination may even just be a direction.
Your voltage level also determines your level of vision.
For instance, if I have a passing interest in a topic, there is low voltage,
So I just quickly skim a few articles to equalize the PD,
Causing the voltage to neutralize, and I move on to other things.
So my knowledge on that topic will be only from whatever I skimmed about it.
Whereas if I have very high voltage or super deep interest in that subject,
I’d read through multiple books like no tomorrow,
And in a short time, I’d know more about that subject that the person who just skimmed it even if he repeats that same routine for a 1000days.
High voltage also increases intensity, and that increase in intensity increases vision.
Many insights are simply not possible when there is low-voltage.
Insights are about seeing the pattern by connecting multiple dots.
If I take a spatial analogy, if you have a small torch light and stand at the fence of a football field in total darkness, you might scan a bit with the torch and conclude there is nobody there and leave.
But if you have one of those 100000 lumen mega flashlights, then you might instantly see that at the corners of the field there are a few homeless people sleeping, and also see a few dogs and cats roaming.
So that level of voltage is needed to see the larger patterns (Insight).
In the field of wonder/contemplation/devotion, the voltage/PD is so much, that no amount of your action will close the gap.
This is the realm of fundamental science say about mastering the subatomic space or the mystic who contemplates the universe or wonders about the ultimate nature of reality.
There is no end point in these desires, where the PD could be closed.
These are endless endeavours, but they are also the most profoundly moving.
A very high voltage can a self-transcending experience because it will pull all of you towards the other pole.
You become an instrument that all encompassing-ly serves something far larger than itself.
When we do daily survival tasks,
All of that is initiated by low voltage,
Because firstly there is a clear end point for every task,
And secondly those tasks need only fractional engagement from your side (very limited PD with low current flows that ebb when the tasks are done).
High Voltage, Love, Longing, Devotion, Wonder, Contemplation, Meaningfulness, Vision, Insight, Profundity, Incredible possibility, Depth, Transformation – all mean the same thing essentially.
True life only begins when you are fully drawn to die into something higher.
Until then you are living on low-voltage only, which manages only survival, but with no transformation possibility.
Journey to the Abstract 