To dance a dance,
You must find its center and first root yourself into it.
If you change the center, you change the dance.
Investment of life energies
Invest your life energies in:
# What you love/cherish
# What you like
# What you are interested in
# What you value
# What you care about
# What you feel really matters to you
# What you are concerned about
# What you feel deeply and genuinely about
# What you think and feel is important/significant
# What you feel is most meaningful to you
# What you desire
Completing and freeing the dependence on relationships
All relationships are with parts of ourselves projected out to and as others.
The other is that part of ourselves we have projected out “as” the other.
Thus when we reclaim and own that projected part/aspect,
We neutralize the attraction, and free ourselves.
To give an analogy,
Say you have a backpack full of 100s of smartphones.
But say, you only keep 2 of those phones in your pocket,
And you have no active memory of the backpack’s existence.
Now when you see your friend showing you his phone,
You’ll recognize it, it will look familiar,
You’ll feel attracted towards it, and want to possess it.
But if you realize you are carrying a backpack full of them,
And look inside it,
You’d find that you own that exact same model.
Then there is no longer an attraction to the other’s phone,
But rather, you can enjoy exploring the phone’s features together.
Because now there is a commonality and you also own that same model.
The very act of relating is like a play or dance.
The question is then whether it is conscious or unconscious.
A conscious relationship is like a conscious dance done willingly from both sides,
(i.e. conscious projection and introjection),
While an unconscious relationship is like an unconscious dance happening compulsively from both sides,
(i.e. unconscious projection and introjection).
Once you own all aspects of yourself, you become whole,
And realize that all the others are representative of potentials of your own consciousness.
Then there is nothing that you lack, that can only be got from the other.
Rather, whatever you experience as the other, is instantly owned.
The same would apply to ‘aversion to others’ too.
It is the aversion of the projected aspect of ourselves that we believe we are.
So there can be 2 steps:
First the delusion (false Introjection), and then Projection.
To free the identity from all these introjections,
Is to contemplate and realize our essence is beyond all of this,
And is transcendent of all of these appearances,
Which are all but only one of the possibilities of our infinite nature.
Energy transforms energy
Energy transforms other energy.
“Bigger stronger energies” transform “Smaller weaker energies”.
Shakti is the only real currency – i.e. Energy currency.
To be Influenced —and—- To Influence.
You are attracted to what you care about —-and —- You transmit what you care about
They both go on together.
Everyone starts off as an infant right, in the yin receiving state.
We are a conduit for influences passing through us.
[Yin -> Yang -> [Yin -> Yang -> [Yin -> Yang….
Just like the firecracker that bursts forth, and the tinier bits burst forth again, and so on.
The influx of life causes the bursts —–and—– The shimmers/embers (that fall down from the sky) are the vacuuming/absorption action of death (deflux of life).
It is like an endless waterfall = ….Receive -> Absorb with -> Share/Transmit…
…Receive from above and raise oneself -> Serve and raise the others below…
The ontology of emotions
Emotions ontology:
E-motion = Energy in motion
The spectrum:
Towards contraction (Negative emotions) —-<–|—->—- Towards expansion (Positive emotions)
Basic emotion flavors (one way of seeing it):
Fear, Disgust(Contempt, Pity, Sympathy), Anger —<—|—->— Excitement, Joy, Love
The 4 layers of past
The shaft of time can be divided into 4 parts.
Traversing from the big bang, origin of this universe through:
# The inanimate forms
# Different life forms
# Human life forms
# This life until present age
The memory of all of this is present now and recorded at some level in the field of consciousness (present within one).
So there is an imprint/record of the entire history of the universe from its origin to the present date within each one.
This further expands upon the concept of past lives because generally we think of past lives only in the human form or at most we extend it to certain animals.
The big bang and the black holes are entry and exit points of space into time.
The explosive emergence of the manifest existence —–and—– The return of getting vacuumed out of manifest existence.
Or I could word it as:
Big Bangs and Black holes are the births and deaths.
They stand at the interface guardians between the physical and non-physical.
Emotional Themes I feel with Rock Music
Anger, Rage, Will, Domination, Confidence, Conviction, Resolve, Determination, Tenacity, Grit, Coolness, Expertise, Mastery, Strength, Brute Force, Inner Turmoil/Conflict/Disturbance, Intensity, Power of influence, Charging, High energy reverberation, Belief, Hope, Faith, Religion, Messiah, Savior, Hero, Purpose, Mission, Importance, Significance, Thump, Earth-shattering power, War, Violence, Attack, Fight, Expression, Overpowering, Overbearing, Being swept away, Lean muscles, Alertness, Fast reactions, Sharp senses, Hardness, Avenging, Revenge, Aliveness, Groove, Electric sensations, Existential fear thoughts, Powerful expression, Flow, Release, Catharsis, Deliverance, Rush.
The mirrors of the self and world
The self reflects the world.
The world reflects the self.
The self projects the world.
The world is a projection of the self.
What is held in the self, is seen in the world.
What is held in the world, is seen in the self.
What is sought in the self, is sought in the world.
What is sought in the world, is sought within the self too.
There is a bi-directional correlation, correspondence, and reflection.
People who want to rule and who seek ruler-ship positions in the world -> Actually want to rule themselves too.
You cannot rule the world right, unless you rule your own mind first.
All qualities extend to the self first -> Then they go outward.
Controlling one’s own mind is needed -> Before it is extended to controlling other minds.
The view of the self -> Extends to the view of the world.
People on the journey of understanding their selves -> In effect are also on a journey of understanding the world.
When one is on an inner journey of growth -> There is a natural looking up to many things in the world, and a recognition of many possibilities.
When one is attempting to get security within, for their identity -> Then everything outside that would alter that is seen as a threat.
Similarly, the way you treat others -> Is a reflection of the way you treat yourself.
True double standard does not exist in the psychic plane or the subconscious.
There is always direct correlation and extension.
Evil is actually simply “small identity”.
Because “small identity” will attempt to destroy everything that is not that.
Evil or Good in this realm, is just a question of how inclusive or large your “identity” is.
The whole idea of romantic relations may be a social construct
I had this wacky train of thought come to me.
Hope viewers of this post find it entertaining/interesting.
The whole idea of romantic relationship is a societal/cultural/civilizational/human-organization based construct.
If all humans just lived wild,
Males would randomly have sex with 100s of women, and probably have 30-40 children each or more.
The male would not know who his child is.
Also, there seems to be no easily observable causality linking the sexual act to the consequence of pregnancy, and the consequent children that come from that.
There is just a wild instinctual desire for the male.
Similarly women too feel this same wild desire, in certain time periods, and depending on their mood they may run away, resist, or allow the sex to happen.
The man in his prime years would probably be more motivated, since he can easily manage to do 1 or 2 every day without any time-off periods.
The things is, after the sex, the woman too may not be able to causally connect the act of sex to the pregnancy that happens after.
Could she not take it as something that just naturally happened from God?
So the causality is not known from either side, male or female.
The female would bond with the child from the oxytocin and breastfeeding period, and that bond may result in the child and mother recognizing each other.
But there is no way the child will know the father, and neither will the father know.
It could be anybody.
If the woman has had sex with 5 men in a day, and gets pregnant, how would she have any idea who caused the child OR if the 5 acts had anything to do with the child at all?
The first symptoms of pregnancy after all come much later, probably a fortnight later at least, right?
Another aspect is that, if the child grows up away from the mother from a young age, it is doubtful if the mother can recognize the child.
The child may recognize the mother, because her age may not change her appearance as much in the 15-45 zone, but even that may not be easy.
So it seems like the entire notion of civilization/society is to regulate birth and to ensure the spread of resources to everyone.
By putting the responsibility on the father, the father is deterred from following his raw instinct and seeking new mates.
Similarly, a responsibility is also put on the mother, to take care of the child for much longer than she might have otherwise done.
The socialization/enculturation/civilization process is to suppress the sex instinct’s wildness, and instead redirect it into the structures of society, that is, to gain status/position/rank and then seek out the opp-sex of similar status/position/rank etc.
This I guess spawns the whole matrix of mating/romantic fantasy and social status/rank/position/specialness.
The fantasy of being the elite and mating with other elite,
Like the notion of kings/queens, emperors/empresses, prince/princesses and so on.
Names are used in societal organization to TAG the person.
It is an identifier similar to your debit card number, social security number and so on.
Similarly even the roles of mother/father are tags society puts on folk.
Like XXX is the mother of XXXX —–OR—— XXXX is the father of XXXX.
Also the agreement of marriage itself, is really a contract/agreement that serves the children who will be born from the mating of the 2.
Marriage was essentially a system created for the bringing up of children.
Nowadays people use it for companionship, but that is a conscious contract of sort, and it does not have much binding, since both the parties are independent.
It is only the child that is born helpless, and needs a lot of nurture at least till the age of 10.
There seems to big rift in the way “natural biology drives/impulses/instincts” operate and in the way we view everything from the “societal/cultural/civilizational lens”.
The former is generally subsumed into the latter in the process of socialization.
I guess, based on seeing the consequences, ramifications, and aftermath, birth causation etc. – Wise people with vision created systems such as culture/society/civilization to organize and regulate the different drives so that the system could serve in the longer term as a win-win for everyone.
Society/Culture then seems like a long distance vision of how people can live together and mutually fulfill all their needs .
As more needs get satisfied, people may become conscious of finer and subtler needs, which would gradually make their way into modifying society’s formal or informal structures.
The seeds outside and within
You can only connect with or experience the seed outside you,Â
If it awakens the corresponding seed inside you.
Let’s put a scale of 1-10 to this seed aliveness.
Generally there is also a threshold of aliveness needed for you to become conscious of the seed aliveness and its activity.
People who get overwhelmed and overstimulated easily, have a lower threshold,
While people who gravitate to extreme levels of stimulation, have a higher threshold.
Resonance with others (i.e. between your seed and their seed activity) will excite your own seeds.
This excitation, amplification, or enhancement is then felt within.
If you have a low threshold for consciousness of these things,
The resonance will often appear to bring back to life, seemingly dead seeds within you.
We often seek others or cues that will stimulate the seeds within us we identify with and want to enhance.
For instance, say you have a seed desire within you that wants to go window shopping at the mall.
Let’s say it is below your threshold of consciousness (threshold: 4, and this seed is at 2)
If someone else, a friend say, comes along with the same seed desire but at aliveness level 8, he/she will be clearly conscious of this want.
If they then ask you whether you want to join them in a trip to the mall, this proposal will now increase your seed aliveness temporarily in their presence to 6 because of resonance, and you will become dimly aware of your own desire to join them and may likely say yes to it.
If you have a very limited ego identity you will only identify with some seeds and try to get rid of most of the others.
Accordingly you will also have a very narrow relationship with the outside world, limited to only things and people that maintain or grow those ‘identified-with seeds’.
If your ego identity is diffuse and vast, you will be an empath and be able to connect through many many more seeds.
That is about identity.
The next variables are about energetic activation and consciousness threshold.
If your consciousness threshold is very low, say 1/10, then you are like an owl, super sensitive and can see in the dark. You will probably get overwhelmed easily and perceive a ton of things.
If your consciousness threshold is very high, say 7/10, then you will only feel seed activities within that cross that threshold. So there will be a constant need for very high stimulation.
If your net seed energies and activity are at a low ebb (<3/10) then you will feel depressed, empty, and blank.
Whereas when your net seed energies are high (>7/10) you will feel alive, rich, and euphoric.
Some drugs enhance the seed energy which are generally called stimulants.
While certain drugs lower the consciousness thresholds in different ways like LSD.
The drugs could do both too.
Both result in an enrichment of experience we call high or euphoria.
Meditation in silence generally is to lower the consciousness threshold, so that you end up feeling rich even with lowered activation.
Whereas LSD might stimulate the energies to a higher pitch causing a bunch of seed activity to cross your consciousness threshold.
Also, if you already have lower consciousness threshold coupled with LSD, then your euphoria and richness will be overwhelmingly higher than someone with the higher threshold.
Meditation lowers the threshold, while psychedelics raise the seed powers.
So they both assist each other.
The morphogenetic field is also the influence by resonance from others to us.
It is sort of like a quantum entanglement.
Journey to the Abstract 