In nature, everything seems to have an equilibrium state. Like say levels of water, electricity from higher potential to lower potential.
I have always wondered what would happen if we just do nothing, no effort absolutely, what would happen to the mind? what would it reveal? would it liberate us? Is this what meditation is mostly about?
Every single day/moment, I’m always expending effort towards something or the other. If I’m physically still then mentally I start moving more. According to me continuous thinking can only happen with effort, that means we are habitually putting some effort into accomplishing this. What if I completely drop all effort?Just let go with absolutely no judgment?
I think definitely something seriously profound would be revealed if the mind reaches its true equilibrium. Maybe it would separate us clearly from the mind, because the mind would simply become imperceptible because of almost 0 activity. It might even reveal if the mind is a mere illusion because of the continuous effort we put into it.
I get interesting insights when I think of our body and mind like systems in nature. We have limited reward chemicals in our body and they need to replenish too after they are used. No matter what happens, we will always come back to some kind of equilibrium. For e.g.: If we keep doubling our money, our pleasure return would exponentially decrease. This also means, if you are terribly depressed and you just stop thinking or paying attention to any thought, the mind would come back to equilibrium since your putting no effort. Maybe we are all no different from any plant or animal, and power, money, morals, intelligence etc. are all just hyped out illusions which have many smaller illusion layers supporting them.
1. Initially when I tried I just couldn’t even move. Walking from one end to the other was really difficult and I fell down many times. The legs/foot had to kept extremely tensed to prevent falling. It was just unbelievable how people were doing it with such ease.
2. Then in the 2nd day, I was much better, but still my legs would hurt, I would go fairly slow and was still tensing the legs. I was also falling now and then because of the balance going off.
3. I read that the body’s gyro takes some time to adjust and after that it would be smooth. I still found it unbelievable even at that stage. But surprisingly, each time I tried after that, there was continuous improvement. After the 4th time I could skate fairly fast but i couldn’t life my feet off the ground. Just glide. But this made turning very difficult and the shins would start hurting in a short while.
4. After this I decided to slow down again and try lifting my leg with each step and lengthening the time. I did this really slow for a while. After a while, I got the flow and I could increase speed. Even the legs were relaxed and it felt much smoother.
I was just wondering if this same analogy applies to any activity that we take up….
Reality is still a sort of mystery when we look into things like
1. Our brain just interprets electrical signals from the narrow frequency bands that is captured by each of the 5 senses. Based on this collective experience, reality is defined and patterns are established
2. In dreams/lucid dream we are deceived so easily into believing what we see as reality until we wake up
These 2 facts alone can loosen up our reality concept(material world) to an extent.
Maybe there is nothing material about the world we perceive. Maybe objectively, everything is just some sort of vibrations or crazy high frequencies and in the frequency bands at which our senses work, we perceive this form of reality.
Maybe this unified vibrational field is speeding up. In linear time a few centuries might have passed, but in a different perspective it may be exponential. After all what do we perceive as time, there are mechanical systems in your watch, that make the hands move. What if every atom/molecule starts vibrating faster. What if the entire solar system starts moving faster. Time perception is relative, so we would still calculate the speed of planets relatively and feel that the speed of time is the same. The quality of our measurement depends upon the measuring instruments, so we cannot measure things that alter things globally which includes all the instruments.
Maybe we are witnessing this unexpected technological/intellectual revolution because this vibrational frequency has gone up which means every single atom/molecule is vibrating faster. So this translates into faster thinking, faster inventions, faster change, higher IQs and faster evolution. Vibrational time has just speed-ed up.
There is something about this sense of wonder that feels out of this world. Its something most people lose in childhood. Its truly a priceless experience.
Here are some different ideas that would make us feel small and re-ignite a sense of wonder:
– How small we are physically in front of the size of the physical universe
– We see, hear, smell only a small frequency band….which extends in infinity in both directions
– Our physical reality/material world is actually the denser vibration of solidity, which is where we spend our lives in, subatomic particles vibrate even faster than light and neither their speed nor position can be predicted
– We pay attention(mind) only to a small fraction of the this limited sensory input itself
– And this mind fits things into the concepts we have proved with this extremely narrow knowledge which means cognitive distortions, habits, tendencies which means we an even smaller fraction of the fraction of sensory input perceived.
– We perceive only 3D and 4D only from moment to moment, imagine all the 11 dimensions in concept and think about how expansive it is
Probably 99% of us live in conceptual – language dominated minds, which means the importance of anything is judged by our collection of so called idealized concepts or by weighted comparison, we compare ourselves with this ideal and decide the value of whatever we perceive. This value translates into satisfaction/some kind of really sought after feeling in the body.
In our normal lives, there is a hierarchy of how we get our reward. For example: You desire money, which opens up a possibility for material possessions or buying certain kinds of services/experiences. The external objects have no intrinsic value. Its how they make you feel. Sometimes the external object works to satisfy concepts held in our minds and this provides a much greater component of the feeling.
Say a person wants to possess a BMW. Some of his reasons could be that it represents a particular strata of society, the cream of it(concept)…an elite possession(concept)…only the rich possess(concept)….defines luxury(concept)…a comparison with all the people around you could give superiority – this superiority is actually not because you have something they do not possess…its because you have something that the common public considers highly desirable(concept).
I feel that satisfaction of the concept gives much greater pleasure than the pure visceral component of it. The visceral component or the concept getting satisfied creates a sensation in the body and it is judged. The sensation+judgment = Feeling(pleasant/unpleasant etc.).
So this long hierarchy leads you to the feeling which is the reward. Drugs cut through/pierce this hierarchy straight down and directly give you the feeling you are looking for without any of the in-between part. For an analogy, they act like wormholes in the space time fabric. Thats one of the reasons why it may be so baffling and disorienting to a person who has never thought in this perspective. And i’m still talking in the intellectual plane, leave alone the actual experience. It gives you what you are looking for all this time and you may never achieve that feeling ever in real life and in that intensity.
But here are some of the catches. Since we understand something only from its opposite, you real life will seem really low in comparison to that. Because you’ve witnessed that high, all the events in your life will seem extremely meager. Nothing will seem worth pursuing besides the drug itself, because nothing can give a reward that is even close to that. In other words your sensitivity to real life would get drastically reduced due to this new benchmark that has been set. All your experiences would now be judged according to this benchmark.
Things like meditation or sensory deprivation do exactly the reverse. They heighten your sensitivity to make rewards appear larger and clearer, resulting in happiness. The way I look at it is, both these methods do show you a lesser known secret of life. They may be equally overwhelming/transformational/disorienting(for a normal way of life). But they nevertheless represent polar opposites in the way they are done.
Its funny sometimes, people spend most of their lives in front of their PC/laptop on the internet…either chatting with friends, using orkut, FB, different email boxes, watching movies/television on net and general reading…..A friend of mine would read almost every single review of movies released….has he watched all of the movies?..NOPE barely any…maybe 5% of them…he is a voracious reader….and has REM with overflowing nervous energy and impatience all the time….almost like a crow….he is extremely opinionated on everything….and barely trusts his own intuition….everything is based on what “he has heard from other sources” and even for grading those sources he would look outwards again and read about the credibility of that too……How does my description sound?…..it evokes a certain uncomfortable feeling in me….its like something so essential is missing but I cannot put it into words…..this guy has an array of talents and is fairly impressive “by the book” otherwise…..but lacks something so profound we all know….
Here is my attempt to put that discomfort into words….I think internally he is lost……he completely relies on external sources to tell him what to do and what will give him a reward/how rewarding that thing would be…….no matter how intelligent or smart one may seem what really moves us is essence……the real essence in a human being is spirit….in his case, it is enclosed in a black box covered with a cloak of all kinds of logical manipulations and constructions…..real admiration and beauty too comes form the spirit and we easily spot that in others too….but that feeling cannot be expressed in words….this person would need to see that “Our every single action seeks a reward from the reward center which is within us”….and that is the only place we can find true knowledge which anyways cant be conveyed with language…..language was constructed to convey something much more profound….it does a fairly good job at it but nothing comparable to the concept underlying its creation…..this person is essentially living in a dream…..trapped within his own beliefs and ignorance about some fundamental truths….its a prison that is growing in his own mind…its expanding and further getting entrenched